i'm getting a divorce. it's been a long time coming, and i know it's the right thing but that doesn't make it any easier. this fuucking sucks.
i just fought so hard to make this marriage work and i failed miserably. at least the last 8 years weren't a total waste - i got B&N out of it.
love you, ladies.
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I'm really sorry ((HUGS))
I agree with the ladies you definitely didn't fail. Marriage involves two people committed to making things work. We are here for you.
After 22 cycles and tube removal our IVF miracle has arrived! Detailed IF and IVF info in bio.
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Yep!
After 2 rounds of IVF & 2 rounds of FET, we were blessed with identical twin girls!
DD1: allergic to eggs & dairy
c/p 4/1/11
DD2: milk and soy protein intolerant, allergic to eggs, soy, peanuts, tree nuts, sesame, bananas
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IVF with ICSI #1: BFP
TESE for DH 08/09/09
ER 08/09/09; ET 08/14/09; Beta #1 08/23/09: 150; Beta #2 08/25/09: 267
TTC #2: FET #1: BFP
ET 06/16/11; Beta #1 06/25/11: 282; Beta #2 06/27/11: 777
First u/s: Twins! Baby A stopped growing @ 9 weeks, forever in our hearts
TTC #3: FET #2: c/p lost at 4 weeks
Thanks to all my bitches. I'm glad you're here.
Sooooo i have MH's plane ticket to Mexico that he's obviously not going to use now. Who wants to go to Cancun for 5 days in June?
Either that or I'll start taking bids on me using the ticket to make a visit to your town.
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((HUGS))
I'm very sorry.
TTC #2, Operative hysteroscopy March 2011; IVF #1 long lupron protocol April 2011-cancelled due to poor response; IVF #2 flare protocol May 2011=hospitalization due to abdominal hemorrhage during ER and no fert due to MFI issues. Moving onto international adoption from Moldova January 2013!
I'm so sorry you have to go through this but I wish you nothing but the best.
((hugs))
Your marriage may be a failure, but you most certainly are not. You did your best.
Take care of yourself and the babes.
1/11: IUI #2 = 5mg Femara + trigger + IUI = BFN
2/11: IUI #3 = injectibles + trigger + IUI = BFN
IVF #1 April 2011 ER 4/23 w/16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fert., 4 blasts to freeze, 5dt of 2 blasts on 4/28, beta #1 5/7 = 243... beta #2 5/9 = 491....beta #3 5/11 = 1113!!
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I'm sorry, it takes 2 to make a marriage work, you're not a failure.
(o) (o) and xoxoxoxo
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I am super late on this, but please don't ever think you are a failure. Your marriage may have failed, but YOU are not. And you're right about B&N - they are lucky babies to have you as their mommy!
I can't remember - where do you live? You could always escape and come visit the lovely Northeast - there's a good number of us up here and I'm sure Ryan would love to play with your LO's! ;-)
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Severe MFI - on to IVF w/ ICSI
IVF#1-2: BFN
IVF#3: BFP! - 1/24: ET - 5d - 2 blasts - 2/02: Beta #1: 16.2 ...... 2/04: Beta #2: 35 ...... 2/09: Beta #3: 401.5 - I'm pregnant! - 2/13: u/s #1 - baby boy, due 10/12, born 10/16! ...... 8 lbs 0 oz, 22 inches!
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TTC #2 - May 2012 -IUI #2: BFP
{{hugs}} you're doing what's best for you, B and N. You will survive this. You are not a failure. We love you!
and, I'll come to Mexico with you!
It's not easy Susan to admit that your marriage cannot be saved. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. The best suggestion I can give is to take care of yourself and B & N and don't make any decisions based on emotions. I looked at the facts and went through the process. When everything was said and done at the end of the day, I knew I did what I could, the best I could.
Hugs!