I need some serious help from who ever believes in prayers, good vibes, thoughts etc...
I went to my follicle measurement appointment on Saturday and the good news is that I responded OK to the new meds. I had a few good follicles and we are going to move forward with our IUI on Thursday morning. That's where the good news ended for me. While I was there Dr. A said that he knows we have had a rough road and that we want/need to get pregnant STAT. He said he's looking to the future and has 3 options for me. 1. to move to injectable meds 2. to do a procedure called ovarian drilling or 3. move to IVF.
Now.. let me explain why each one of these scare the crap out of me!
1. injectables: this is the best option for me as far as being the least scary. I don't look forward to additional needles, but I'm a big girl and I can handle it. The out of pocket cost for us would be about 800-900/month according to Dr. A and he would give us 3 months to get pregnant before moving to something more agressive.
2. Ovarian drilling: just the words make me cringe! It's a surgery and there is recovery time. He didn't go in to any details but I believe there is a 2 or 3 month recovery time and that puts us on hold for that time and time isn't something we have right now. My DH is older than me (he's 40) and we both decided together that if we weren't pregnant by December 11 our baby making days are over and we will most likely pursue adoption or foster/adopt or something along those lines at that time. Plus, our IF insurance runs out in December this year.
3. IVF: I'm terrified of IVF. I know people do it all day long, but I'm scared! I know for 100% fact that if we do IVF it will be a one shot thing. If we aren't successful with IVF then we will be done and I don't like putting all my eggs in one basket (pun intended). One round of IVF will eat up our $15,000 IF coverage and with the money we have saved for IF treatments on top of that $15,000 it won't be enough to do a 2nd round of IVF.
So... best case scenario is that I get pregnant this month with our first round of IUI, if not then I am going to need some serious guidance on where to go next! So, please keep your fingers crossed for us that this is our month. I can really use a break from IF stress for a little while.

Re: RE appointment update (Longish)
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. I will say prayers for you that you get your BFP this month and that God will give you the guidence on how to pursue.
And if that doesnt work.... I'm still looking for that GPS, maybe it will help us both!
(((((HUGS)))))
Griffin 10/2007
Oh honey, I am sorry you're faced with such tough decisions. I will pray for peace and guidance for you guys. Please just remember there are no wrong decisions. No wrong choices. You and H will find the path that is best for you. Good luck and I wish you peace and confidence in your decision.
And I will be praying extra hard that this is a successful cycle for you!
Tyler Anthony arrived on 9.21.09
The Chronicles of Justin and Tyler
I'm so sorry you are dealing with this :-( You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
FWIW, my dr did the ovarian drilling on me. They did it, along with a HSG, during my laparoscopy. Due to the timing of the lap, I was out one cycle, but we were able to do an IUI the next cycle. I was sore for a couple of days, but I have no idea if that was due to the drilling or just because of the surgery in general. Best of luck in whatever you decide!
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