Life ended so a new one could begin?

juwee · January 2011

What a crazy past 3 weeks. On Christmas Eve, my Grandmother entered into eternal rest. She was an amazing woman in so many ways. Strong, selfless, caring, dedicated, along with a FIERCE love for her children, family and God.

She had been living bedridden with Alzhiemers in my Mother's dining room for the past 4 1/2 years. I assumed when she passed it would be a smooth transition for the family, since NOONE should have had to live like that!! I was overwhelmed with the feelings that ensued. Such a loss of a wonderful woman, even though she was truly lost to us to that horrible disease. I would walk in the room and her face would light up and she'd say "Hello June!!! " (My name is Juli). Never did figure out who this "June" character was. Embarrassed

Well, oddly enough I am now 14 dpo, temps still up and I have been having crazy abdominal cramping for the past week. Could it be? Kind of wierd to consider that during the grieving process a child *could* have been concieved. Wouldn't that be something?

I am going nuts because I can't even POAS until 17 DPO due to my micro-trigger inj's that take FOREVER to get out of my system. Here's hoping that AF stays away and this might be it!!

And on an EXTREMELY positive note, for the first time EVER my P4 was 17.2 this month!!!!

So I am asking for prayers that this may be it. It has been 2 1/2 years of trying, and I am not sure how much longer I can take watching my sisters protruding belly smack me in the face everytime I see her. Crying

adaisybug · January 2011

juwee:

I assumed when she passed it would be a smooth transition for the family, since NOONE should have had to live like that!! I was overwhelmed with the feelings that ensued.

I have a similar story with my grandma. She was sick for many years, and shouldn't have had to live like that, but when she finally did pass, I was shocked at how intense my emotions were.

Good luck to you for this cycle. That would certainly be your grandma looking out for you if there is a sweet baby in there!

MrsVo · January 2011

I'm so sorry for your loss. GL this time and I hope you get your BFP. {{{hugs}}}

lizard22809 · January 2011

sorry for your loss. Good luck to you!

keelmic · January 2011

Sorry to hear about your grandmother and I'm hoping that this month is going to be your month. Good luck.

hootie123 · January 2011

I am so sorry for your loss - I had the same feeling when my uncle died - and when I looked at my edd - it would have been his birthday. But obviously I never got pregnant that cycle. If that did happen though - I would of had to name our kid after him! Good luck!

neko621 · January 2011

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I know how you must feel and I hope this is a lucky month for you. DH felt the same way when his dad passed away unexpectedly in August. I was ovulating around the time of his funeral and he thought that his dad would bring us luck. It was awful... Sad Then, DH announced to his two best friends and their wives at the funeral home that I was ovulating and that we were trying to make a baby... (Given the situation and the emotional state, I gave him a free pass.)

Good luck!

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