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into, and had a really bad night.

Bredins wifeBredins wife member
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hey ladies, I probably know some of you from 0-3 but I have never posted on this board...only lurked a bit.

Anyway, I have been dealing with some PPD, but mostly just an extension of my OCD that has gotten extremely out of control since P arrived. I have always been a checker (check the stove, door, lights, etc. multiple times) I had it under control and see a therapist weekly for it. Ever since P arrived I have been checking checking checking to the point it is making me crazy. I can't sleep b/c I check her so many times. Every noise she makes I have to get up and check to see that she is breathing. If H moves, I have to check that she is breathing. If the dog gets out of bed, I have to check on P. I'm convinced that if I don't check she will stop breathing. I know it is not true, but I can't stop. My therapist says it is common for this to happen after having a baby, but I feel so stupid. We do have the angelcare and when she is in her crib, I feel much better. But she is still sleeping in her RnP net to our bed.  I guess I am just looking for reassurance that this will get better, and possibly that I am not alone. I really hope this gets better so I can get some rest.

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Re: into, and had a really bad night.

  • SnoopyLuvSnoopyLuv member

    It will get better, I promise. I wouldn't worry about having P next to you in the RnP, whatever gets you to sleep soundly without going crazy is of utmost importance.

    I don't have experience with OCD and I haven't been fixated on LO still breathing or anything but I just wanted to let you know you are not alone and each day will get a bit easier. I wouldn't let H even hold Josie at first because I was so scared something would happen but I've let up a lot after realizing (slowly) that he wasn't going to drop her or roll on her or whatever.

    Please don't feel stupid, we all have our crazy hang ups about our LO's but we're all here for each other. Please don't hesitate to reach out to me on PM or on 0-3 as well.

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