ok so the past few days have been a lot harder for me and I can not really put my finger as to why its been worse latly. like really really bad mood swings out of no where. I am still bleeding almost a month later and my levels are going back up.
My future SIL has been staying with us for the past 2 months with her 2 daughters. She is pregnant by a man who she has only known for a few months (which she did on purpose) because he has money. she told me this just not in so many words. she left her husband in Japan (he is in the airforce) and is still married to him. she is an aweful person and she pretty much said that her new BF dont want her to ever work and she said "but that doesnt mean that I am not going to have my own bank account with my own money in it" where is she going to get that money??? she is going to STEAL it from him and not tell him, after this man is willing to take care of you and your daughters and YOUR STILL MARRIED TO YOUR HUSBAND?!?!?!? she is due on MY BIRTHDAY A FEW DAYS BEFORE I WOULD HAVE BEEN DUE. we gave them our third floor room with cable television which we dont even have in our own bedroom. And for the second time she is deciding to bring her boyfriend to MY house and sleep on our only couch with the only other cable telivision in the house!! Like I said I have been having a really rough couple days with the worst mood swings that come out of no where!!! So I just wanted to put my son to bed and come on MY couch and watch some TV in hopes of falling asleep and I can not even do that!!!
On top of that my FI works 2 full time jobs 12am to 8am and 8am to 5pm 5 days a week he only gets 2 days off and has been working them just to get by because we have been spending extra money on increased bills and extra food to feed a pregnant woman and her 2 kids. she gets over 2000 bucks a month from the military for her and her kids and her new BF makes a ton of money, we have not asked her for anything but she has not cooked one single meal for her kids or for herself and has not offerd to give us any money at all!!! Yet she went and bought food made some pie thing just to have her BF pick it up to bring to his mother!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME WHAT A SLAP IN THE FACE!! thankfully my FI agrees and wants her out of here ASAP!!! which i think their house just got approved and should be any day now. I want to punch her!! Is that horrible to say since shes PG?? opps, OH WELL. Ok rant over sorry ladies but thanks for listening!


Re: about to flip S*IT!!! (vent)
BFP 1 on 10.30.10 spontaneous m/c on 12.28.10 at 12 weeks
BFP 2 It's a girl! Born 1.18.12 at 39w
Missed M/C discoverd at 10w5d measuring 6w6d on 12/3/10 said goodbye 12/12/10 EDD 6/26/11 "this too shall pass"
DS Born 9/29/2005 via c-section (breech)
BFP #3 3/7/11 - EDD 11/17/11
Betas: @14dpo-182 @18dpo-854!! @21dpo-3124!!!
3-27-11 150 BPM!!!!
He's a BOY!!!! Kieran Thomas
11.10.10 from my belly to my heart at 11wks 5days