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Toddlers: 12 - 24 Months
MSUMamaof2
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I just don't want to do today (vent)
MSUMamaof2
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I'm sorry if this is long, but I just have to get this out. I've been bottling it up, bucking up, trying to be super mom and I can't do it anymore.
I've mentioned on here being sick on and off since the end of September. That's not an exaggeration. I've maybe had 4 weeks of healthy since that time. The rest of the time, I've been doing my job, taking care of my (sometimes also sick) kids and house while sick as a dog. I'm run down. I can't get over illness anymore. I'm irritated, short, and frankly, just not a nice person to my family. DH gets the worst of it, of course. Granted, I think I have some valid concerns and under normal circumstances, I'd probably be able to articulate my thoughts in a more constructive manner--but right now, it's just coming off as all b!tch.
So
yesterday, when DH "let" me sleep in (basically I had to beg him) and I
woke up at 11am to Eli screaming still in his crib and DH sleeping on
the couch and Samuel watching Toy Story, I flipped my sh!t. DH told me
that he was glad he was going back to school today--that he'd rather be
anywhere than around me where I do nothing but treat him like crap. I
was too sick to argue with him, so I went to bed around 10:30pm,
thinking I'd get 8-9 hours of sleep before Sam got up this morning
(hoping I'd be well rested to tackle the day by myself, even though I'm
still sick). Wrong. Eli woke up ready to party at 3:30am, wouldn't go
back to sleep....and when he went down for his first "nap" at 7am, Sam
got up. I'm not sure if I should laugh or cry. Eli never wakes up like
that. Ever.
So here's today, I'm sick. I have fluid in my ears that makes me feel like I'm hearing in a tunnel (and yeah, I need to go to the doctor, but there's no one to watch the boys and I can't take them BOTH to the doctor). DH thinks I suck and there's no way my kids will nap at the same time today. Fvcking fantastic.
I just don't want to do today.Samuel Gregory-born 2/28/08 at 35w,5d due to severe pre-e and HELLP. 6lbs, 12 oz, 19 inches.
Elijah Robert-born 11/23/09 at 38w,5d. 11 pounds, 10 ounces, 21.5 inches.
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Re: I just don't want to do today (vent)
Is there an urgent care facility you can go to once DH gets home? Hang in there. I'm sending you nap wishes hoping your boys take them at the same time. Hope you start to feel better.
And good luck with your DH. When my DH tells me I'm mean or whatevs I tell him I wouldn't have to be so mean if I didn't have to tell him to help out.