Does anyone else feel like I do? It hasn't even been a week and I feel like I'm "over it". I know that I'm not, because you don't just get over something like a m/c in a week or even a month or two. The night it was happening, I had an absolute break down, and then in the ER when it was confirmed I cried, but really nothing since. Maybe it is just the way I am. I have never been the type who is openly emotional about these things. It makes me feel like a terrible mom. It's like my body knows I'm sad (because I don't have an appetite at all, and it is like torture trying to get myself out of bed in the morning). But in my mind everything is just a bunch of facts, like I KNOW what happened, but I don't FEEL what happened. On top of all of that i just don't know how to get back to normal again. I just feel so off balanced, like I'm just going though the motions (especially when I went back to work yesterday). I know I'm just rambling, but can anyone relate?
Re: numb...anyone else?
This is me..sometimes I want to pretend like it didn't happen. Then I feel bad, like I'm not wanting to remember my baby.
OP I am there sometimes too..like I'm totally over it and want to move on.
Everyone is different, so please don't feel bad about the way you feel! When I first miscarried, I really wasn't very upset at first. I miscarried early (~6w), and physically it wasn't too difficult. I thought I would be OK emotionally too, and decided not to take any time off from work; about halfway through work the next day, I just started to shake and I knew I had to tell my adviser what had happened and that I needed to take some time off.
I only ended up taking one day off (being home alone was too hard for me) and it was a few days after that when I really broke down. (And I mean I really lost it; at one point I was afraid I would never stop crying.) For weeks, I was just "going through the motions." I don't think I ever "got back to normal" in the sense that I don't think I'll ever be the way I was before. I am, however, doing OK. I think that eventually you will be too. All of the women on this board share similar experiences, but for each of us the experience has been personal and our own. Your experience is yours, and while you can find comfort in the similar parts of the experience, I don't think you should feel bad about the aspects of your own experience that are unique to you.
Take care of yourself, and we're here if you need us.