I'm sorry for being so down lately. I'm scared and this is the only place I feel I have to let it out. Thanks for all of your support. Some of you have been thru really tough times and you stay so strong.
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I don't believe there is any need to apologize. IF is a very difficult burden to carry and it isn't easy for anyone. Some days are better than other, but for the most part you just keep pressin' on.
I know the fear you feel and I'm glad that there is a place to get some advice, support, or just lurk and see how others are coping with things.
Good luck to you in the coming year. I do hope great things happen for you.
EDIT: I just looked at your siggy and it looks like great things are already happening! You're expecting! That's some great stuff going on. Enjoy it!
I would be scared too, no apology needed. Vent away, we are here for you!
Sending you tons of doubling, tripling beta dust!!!! (((hugs)))
TTC #1 Since 11/08 - Dx: MFI & PCOS 7 IUIs = All BFNs 2011: March IVF #1.2 = e/p @ 6w: May IVF #2 = BFN: July sFET #1 = BFN
2012: Jan We're Certified FC/A Parents May IVF #3 = c/p June-Nov Foster Mommy to M (Toddler) July FET #2 = BFN Aug FET #3 = BFN Sept-Nov Foster Mommy to Baby Bella (Newborn) Nov HSG/Sono = Clear! Dec FET #4 = BFN
2013: Feb FET #5 = m/c @ 6.5w May-July Foster Mom to H (8 yr old girl) June/July/Aug IVF #4 = Freeze All July = Unofficially Adopting T (10 yr old boy) Sept FET #6 = TBD **PAIF/SAIF Welcome**
That's what we're here for, girl! I can only imagine the anxiety you're feeling right now ---- just try to relax and enjoy as much of this time as you can.
MFI and (now) AMA IVF 1 April 2011 - Cancelled IVF 1.5 July 2011 - MC IVF 2 October 2011 - BFP! *Identical Twin Boys born June 2012* Here we go again...IVF 3 is underway!
No apology needed. That's what this board is for - to vent, to cry, to lean, and to celebrate whenever we can.
Sending lots of beta dust your way!
SAIFW
TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
Clomid/Femara no "O"
IVF #1 BFN
FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
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Don't apologize. This is what this board is for. IF really sucks and most of the time there is no other place to let out your vents, here is that special place for you, me and everyone of us.
Sending you doubling dust....
My Wonderful Sister is my GC!!!!
3 IUIs, 2 unmedicated, 1 50mg of Clomid = All BFNs
Next step IVF!!!!
Melinda & Michael
5*6*06
God Bless The Broken Road
I agree - no need to apologize. You can be both thankful for being pregnant and scared to death at the same time. It's like IF trains us to be fearful and cautious, and it's difficult to get over that. I hope you will continue to share what you're really feeling - that's what we're here for!
TTC with DOR, low morphology, fertilization issues
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
don't even go there! I always think about the song- Lean on me- when I come to this board...we are here to be the "leaner" or the "leanee" LOL ; ) and both sometimes...
(((HUGS!)))
ttc since 10-09
first visit with RE 09-10
ME-everything ok
DH- AZOOSPERMIA...biopsy confirmed Sertoli Only Cell syndrome
Donor IUI#4 was the charm (8-27-11) with 125iuFollistim/Ovidrel/Endometrin/PIO/vit D
beta #1 9/8/11....BFP!!! : ) @ 47.7
beta...#2 9/15/11... 1,998
beta#3 9/22/2011- 27,900
Baby's hb seen @6w2d ! 1-3-2012 20 wk u/s everything lookin' good!
don't even go there! I always think about the song- Lean on me- when I come to this board...we are here to be the "leaner" or the "leanee" LOL ; )
(((HUGS!)))
ttc since 10-09
first visit with RE 09-10
ME-everything ok
DH- AZOOSPERMIA...biopsy confirmed Sertoli Only Cell syndrome
Donor IUI#4 was the charm (8-27-11) with 125iuFollistim/Ovidrel/Endometrin/PIO/vit D
beta #1 9/8/11....BFP!!! : ) @ 47.7
beta...#2 9/15/11... 1,998
beta#3 9/22/2011- 27,900
Baby's hb seen @6w2d ! 1-3-2012 20 wk u/s everything lookin' good!
dont apologize, IF takes away so much from us. the worse thing is that it takes away the joy of a positive beta. i am sure the worrying never stops. huge ((HUGS)) you are pregnant and enjoy it, you have a LO in that belly =-)
::PAIF/SAIF Welcome::
TTC since July 2008
IUI 1,2,3 BFN
IVF #1 C/P, FET 1,2,3 BFN IVF#2 BFP
Just saw the update on your siggy. That is wonderful news! And please know that we are here for you. IF is a such an emotional rollercoaster, it's helpful to have a "safety net", like this board, where you can let your guard down.
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That's what where all here for... don't feel bad about venting. I don't have anyone IRL who knows about our IF but my husband, so it's nice to have people here who are going through the same thing, feeling the same feelings, and having the same frustrations.
Its all very hard and stressful. I just let myself feel however I felt. I couldn't be positive the whole time. I was very miserable a lot of the time. It worked for me, but poor DH lol. Hugs for ur stress and good luck w ur beta!
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No apologize needed!! We are very lucky to have a place that we can come and talk to other people who are going through the same things each one of us is going through!!
Jennifer
TTC #1
Dx PCOS
2009 Apr, Aug, and Sept tried clomid cycles.... BFN. Oct...DH SA results were normal. Me...HSG - left tube was clear, right tube was slightly blocked. Dec - Clomid #4 200mg
Feb 2010 - IUI #1 200mg Clomid = BFN. June 2010 - IUI #2 200mg Clomid = BFN. March 2011 - IUI #3 w/ injectables = BFN (1st & last with RE, moving on to IVF). July 2011 - consult for IVF. Sept 2011, 1st IVF. Got our BFP on 10/2/11. Became a mom on 5/5/12 to a beautiful baby boy!
Re: An apology
I don't believe there is any need to apologize. IF is a very difficult burden to carry and it isn't easy for anyone. Some days are better than other, but for the most part you just keep pressin' on.
I know the fear you feel and I'm glad that there is a place to get some advice, support, or just lurk and see how others are coping with things.
Good luck to you in the coming year. I do hope great things happen for you.
EDIT: I just looked at your siggy and it looks like great things are already happening! You're expecting! That's some great stuff going on. Enjoy it!
I would be scared too, no apology needed. Vent away, we are here for you!
Sending you tons of doubling, tripling beta dust!!!! (((hugs)))
7 IUIs = All BFNs
2011: March IVF #1.2 = e/p @ 6w: May IVF #2 = BFN: July sFET #1 = BFN
2012: Jan We're Certified FC/A Parents
May IVF #3 = c/p
June-Nov Foster Mommy to M (Toddler)
July FET #2 = BFN
Aug FET #3 = BFN
Sept-Nov Foster Mommy to Baby Bella (Newborn)
Nov HSG/Sono = Clear!
Dec FET #4 = BFN
2013: Feb FET #5 = m/c @ 6.5w
May-July Foster Mom to H (8 yr old girl)
June/July/Aug IVF #4 = Freeze All
July = Unofficially Adopting T (10 yr old boy)
Sept FET #6 = TBD
**PAIF/SAIF Welcome**
My little gummy bear
10/09-started our journey 3/14/10- Dx anovulatory 12/29 IUI #3 BFP beta 1-25, 2-60, 3-2064. u/s 1 beautiful baby
No need to apologize. I know it is very stressful, scary and overwhelming.
Just try to relax, breath and enjoy the fact that you are pregnant. That's good for both you and your baby.
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
IVF 1 April 2011 - Cancelled
IVF 1.5 July 2011 - MC
IVF 2 October 2011 - BFP!
*Identical Twin Boys born June 2012*
Here we go again...IVF 3 is underway!
TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN
IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
Lap 7/21/10
IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!
James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!
Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!
No apology needed. That's what this board is for - to vent, to cry, to lean, and to celebrate whenever we can.
Sending lots of beta dust your way!
TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
Clomid/Femara no "O"
IVF #1 BFN
FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
my blog
Don't apologize. This is what this board is for. IF really sucks and most of the time there is no other place to let out your vents, here is that special place for you, me and everyone of us.
Sending you doubling dust....
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
don't even go there! I always think about the song- Lean on me- when I come to this board...we are here to be the "leaner" or the "leanee" LOL ; ) and both sometimes...
(((HUGS!)))
don't even go there! I always think about the song- Lean on me- when I come to this board...we are here to be the "leaner" or the "leanee" LOL ; )
(((HUGS!)))
TTC since July 2008
IUI 1,2,3 BFN
IVF #1 C/P, FET 1,2,3 BFN
IVF#2 BFP
it's a girl!!
Just saw the update on your siggy. That is wonderful news! And please know that we are here for you. IF is a such an emotional rollercoaster, it's helpful to have a "safety net", like this board, where you can let your guard down.
That's what where all here for... don't feel bad about venting. I don't have anyone IRL who knows about our IF but my husband, so it's nice to have people here who are going through the same thing, feeling the same feelings, and having the same frustrations.
No apologize needed!! We are very lucky to have a place that we can come and talk to other people who are going through the same things each one of us is going through!!
You defintely do NOT need to apologize.
We have all been there at one point or another. And not having many people to talk to IRL of those who get it is super hard. We all need an outlet.
Praying for doubling betas for you!
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*