Whine: So, I woke up at 3 a.m. to AF. No more question about it, it was not implantation from Christmas day until last night, oh no. It was AF doing some weird new thing. So I was up from 3 until about 7:30, crying.
Why do we have to get punnished by our bodies, not only with the whole TTCAL, but with the physical pain that comes with AF??
I haven't been TTCAL as long as many of the wonderful women on this board, but I had tried for 9 months before our Aug. BFP. I have had many procedures & surgery for gyne issues since age 16, including endometriosis. I was told at 26 to start TTC. That was pretty difficult since I met my husband-to-be at 32 and got married last January, at 35.
Now, at 36, my loss was due to a genetic condition most likely to occur as I age. And all I can think is that I am running out of time, and when it finally happens again, I'll be even older and another genetic condition will occur. And I'm so worried that with my messed up system, that we just got very, very lucky last summer, and it won't even happen again, anyway.
I know I should count my blessings, but right now I just can't.
Rant over. Time for the wine (or is it too early?)

Re: Wine for My Whine (Endless Rant & Pity Party)
First of all big hugs because AF is an evil hag!!! Second, it's never to early for wine!! I hope you get your BFP soon!!
(((HUGS))) Go ahead and have some wine. You could make a mimosa
It's considered a breakfast drink!
I'm sorry AF came and kept you up all night. I hope your lucky cycle comes soon!
"'My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,' says the Lord. 'And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.'" Isaiah 55:8-9
BFP #1 7/4/2010--Natural M/C 8/4/2010
BFP #2 4/25/2011 Please stick, baby!! EDD 1/1/2012
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Because of the great "Snow"vember of 2015, my medicated cycle was cancelled. However, we were blessed with our little rainbow baby due on 8/14/15! Baby J had other plans and decided to make his grand ole entrance on 7/4/2015!
Surprise! Our little girl entered this world on 12/8/2016 after her eviction notice was long past due. Our little turkey baby turned into a snow baby!
ITS A BOY!!!! Born 11/13/11 BFP #4: 10/29/12 edd 7/11/12
**warning, DS photo in ticker***
AF just sucks, sucks, sucks. I've had bad cramping since my very first AF when I was in 6th grade. I remember it so clearly. Some cycles are better than others, but never fun. I use to think, with this much pain, it's GOT to feel the same as a miscarriage. What I hate is that I now know that's exactly right.
So sorry you are having problems TTC. Early menopause runs in my family, as in my mom went through the change at age 38. I know what the ticking clock sounds like. Praying that everything works out for you...God can do more than you can possibly imagine!!
Oh, no no no. No no no no no. That cannot happen. Oh no.
BFP#1 - 8/27/10 - D&C 10/27/10 @ 13 weeks to Trisomy 18
Missing our Angel Baby Gabriel
BFP#2 - 3/18/11 - CP 3/19/11 BFP#3 - 4/27/11 - Due 1/9/12
Dx: MFI- 3% morph
IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
M/C #1 2001 (6w1d); M/C #2: 10/02/10 (4w4d); M/C #3 05/26/11 (4w3d) Clomid BFP #4 7/18/11 @ 9DPO Please baby stick! Beta #1 (11DPO)=51; Beta #2 (13DPO)=170; Beta #3 (19DPO)=2659!! EDD: 03/31/12
Yep. Runs in the family, every generation seems to go through it a little earlier. I want 2 or 3 kids, but I'm 32. Feeling like there isn't much time left, thrilled to have my DS and just hope we can squeeze one more in. The m/c caught me by surprise to say the least.
Honest to God, your post was like a punch in my already-nauseous stomach. I would therefore have a year to conceive.
BFP#1 - 8/27/10 - D&C 10/27/10 @ 13 weeks to Trisomy 18
Missing our Angel Baby Gabriel
BFP#2 - 3/18/11 - CP 3/19/11 BFP#3 - 4/27/11 - Due 1/9/12
Thanks for your hugs and support. Honestly, I cannot stop crying today. Thank goodness for the wonderfully entertaining posts on TB today.
BFP#1 - 8/27/10 - D&C 10/27/10 @ 13 weeks to Trisomy 18
Missing our Angel Baby Gabriel
BFP#2 - 3/18/11 - CP 3/19/11 BFP#3 - 4/27/11 - Due 1/9/12