TTC After a Loss

Wine for My Whine (Endless Rant & Pity Party)

Whine: So, I woke up at 3 a.m. to AF. No more question about it, it was not implantation from Christmas day until last night, oh no. It was AF doing some weird new thing. So I was up from 3 until about 7:30, crying.

Why do we have to get punnished by our bodies, not only with the whole TTCAL, but with the physical pain that comes with AF??

I haven't been TTCAL as long as many of the wonderful women on this board, but I had tried for 9 months before our Aug. BFP. I have had many procedures & surgery for gyne issues since age 16, including endometriosis. I was told at 26 to start TTC. That was pretty difficult since I met my husband-to-be at 32 and got married last January, at 35.

Now, at 36, my loss was due to a genetic condition most likely to occur as I age. And all I can think is that I am running out of time, and when it finally happens again, I'll be even older and another genetic condition will occur. And I'm so worried that with my messed up system, that we just got very, very lucky last summer, and it won't even happen again, anyway.

I know I should count my blessings, but right now I just can't.

Rant over. Time for the wine (or is it too early?)

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Re: Wine for My Whine (Endless Rant & Pity Party)

  • So sorry hun. AF sucks. ((HUGS)) It has got to be 5 o'clock somewhere right, if not then at least noon somewhere. :) I hope your day gets better.
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  • First of all big hugs because AF is an evil hag!!!  Second, it's never to early for wine!!  I hope you get your BFP soon!!

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  • (((HUGS)))  Go ahead and have some wine.  You could make a mimosa Wink  It's considered a breakfast drink! 

    I'm sorry AF came and kept you up all night.  I hope your lucky cycle comes soon!

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  • I'm so sorry ((((HUGEHUGS))))
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  • I'm so sorry, boo to AF!  *hugs*  It's never too early for wine...cheers Drinks
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  • It's never to early for a little wine... And I'm so sorry for stupid AF (((hugs)))
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    AF just sucks, sucks, sucks.  I've had bad cramping since my very first AF when I was in 6th grade.  I remember it so clearly.  Some cycles are better than others, but never fun.  I use to think, with this much pain, it's GOT to feel the same as a miscarriage.  What I hate is that I now know that's exactly right. 

    So sorry you are having problems TTC.  Early menopause runs in my family, as in my mom went through the change at age 38.  I know what the ticking clock sounds like.  Praying that everything works out for you...God can do more than you can possibly imagine!!

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  • imageJNS023:

    my mom went through the change at age 38

    Oh, no no no. No no no no no. That cannot happen. Oh no.

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  • It's five o'clock somewhere. Hugs and cheers!
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  • Oh I am so sorry about AF showing up!  And it's definitely never too early for wine.....I love wine and come CD 1 you better believe I will drink a whole bottle! 
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  • I'm so sorry (((hugs))) It's never too early for wine!
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  • imagethewayiam:
    imageJNS023:

    my mom went through the change at age 38

    Oh, no no no. No no no no no. That cannot happen. Oh no.

    Yep. Runs in the family, every generation seems to go through it a little earlier.  I want 2 or 3 kids, but I'm 32. Feeling like there isn't much time left, thrilled to have my DS and just hope we can squeeze one more in.  The m/c caught me by surprise to say the least.

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    imagethewayiam:
    imageJNS023:

    my mom went through the change at age 38

    Oh, no no no. No no no no no. That cannot happen. Oh no.

    Yep. Runs in the family, every generation seems to go through it a little earlier.  I want 2 or 3 kids, but I'm 32. Feeling like there isn't much time left, thrilled to have my DS and just hope we can squeeze one more in.  The m/c caught me by surprise to say the least.

     

    Honest to God, your post was like a punch in my already-nauseous stomach. I would therefore have a year to conceive.

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  • Thanks for your hugs and support. Honestly, I cannot stop crying today. Thank goodness for the wonderfully entertaining posts on TB today.

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  • uhg! I am so sorry you AF showed up like that! I call her MYRA I have no idea why but I do and I always tell my DH that dumb *** showed up! she is like an annoying person at a party that follows you around and doesnt know when she is not wanted! Hope your day gets better and your New Year Brings babies.. for you and for all of us!
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