emotional wreck

superaunt · December 2010

I've broken down twice already today- and it's 730am. It's not bad tears... it's just I'm being a huge sap, I guess.

One year ago, I was in the hospital, they had just taken out the cervidil and started me on pitocin. At noon, I would be getting up to go to the bathroom and upon flopping myself back into bed, I would feel this weird clicking sensation inside, followed by a ton of warmth down there. My water would break. The contractions immediately become incredibly intense. I get the epidural and lay around until they tell me to start pushing at 10PM.

Sabrina Gisele will be celebrating her 1st year with us at 120 in the morning.

She's the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me. (here come the tears) I waited so friggin long to become a mom and was blessed with the most amazing, most beautiful, most sweetest, most happiest baby. I just can't believe she's mine and that she's 1.

Married2003 · December 2010

Awww. I'm tearing just reading your post because I know what you mean! I almost gave up on having kids until Thomas!!! Happy birthday sweet Sabrina!!!!!

robynlesley · December 2010

Awww.... sweetie... I understand. It goes so fast and it's bittersweet. Sabrina is lucky to have such a sentimental mama!

And I know what you mean about waiting so long... 10 years ago, I thought I'd be single and childless forever. And now I have this amazing spectacular boy. Being a parent is the best thing and the hardest thing at the same time.

(((HUG)))

YaraC · December 2010

I was thinking about you this morning and wondering how you were doing on this last day of Sabrina's infancy. (((hugs))) and just think of all the wonderful things to come in the next year!!!

dkays · December 2010

This also made me tear up. Motherhood is the most amazing wonderful journey you can take.

Hope Miss Sabrina has a great 1st Birthday.

iluvtom · December 2010

Happy 1st Bday Sabrina!! I know it will continue to be an emotional roller coaster but enoy every up and down that the journey brings you!

fauxshelley · December 2010

Oh, now I'm tearing up too! Happy early birthday little Sabrina!

busybea · December 2010

OMGosh! Now I'm tearing up! Motherhood is simply the most incredible and wonderful thing! I know I can die peacefully now (ok well, maybe at 95yrs old) that I have created the most wonderful children I can ask for. )

Hope she (and your family) has the most wonderful of birthdays! )

leffe1 · December 2010

Awww! I am crying with you. It is such an emotional journey. She is lucky to have such a wonderful mama! Happy Birthday sweet girl!

Peppernut · December 2010

So sweet! Happy birthday/labor day!

daisydana · December 2010

I feel the same way. I waited forever for my sweet little girl. Don't make me start crying. I might not stop for the next week. I'm sure that I will start bawling as soon as the box with her party stuff arrives tomorrow.

Sabrina is blessed to have such a caring Mom. Today is your day. To remember and cry. Tomorrow is her day. I have a feeling you will have more smiles than tears. You'll do fine.

Pesky · December 2010

Aw, that is so special! You should print this for her baby book! Happy bday, S!!!

superaunt · December 2010

well shiit ladies!!! i shouldn't have read these responses because now the tears are rolling again!

i really do appreciate this board and you ladies. i had almost given up being sincere on the bump... but i can always come here for that.

carladillon · December 2010

I hear you - I was the same way. I still find myself just staring at her, in complete and total awe of this little creature. Enjoy these moments. It gets even better!

livvielo · December 2010

Hugs and congratulations, mama! And happy birthday a few hours early to the beautiful Miss S! Party!!!

vanverth · December 2010

I don't think that the younger women on the other lists have the same kind of feelings about being a mother as most of us do. Not that they love their children any less but many of us have waited SOOOO long to have a baby that we treasure every single moment.

M.Amy · December 2010

Aww - it is hard when they turn one. I was just thinking last night how sad I was that Matt is getting so big - I would just love another day of him being a baby.

racampbell1 · December 2010

What a sweet post, you should definitely print that out for her baby book, like pp said. Isn't it funny how your child's birthday becomes such a different sort of celebration than you expected? I also re-lived my labor and the delivery and kept thinking "this time last year __ was happening". It really made me see my mom in a different light, thinking that she probably re-lived my birth for all of my birthdays! Enjoy these beautiful moments and give yourself permission to mourn the end of her babyhood - but know that even better things are to come! I also agree with others that have said women of our ... ahem.... mature age probably appreciate being a mother in a different way than those young `uns on the other boards! When you wait for something for a long time, you're bound to appreciate it more. Happy birthday to your beautiful girl!