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Let's try this again...

jennbuen16jennbuen16
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Hello!

I am 38 years old, my husband just turned 40. We have been trying to conceive since our wedding in September '09. The last 6 months have been pretty terrible, we have lost a few family members, we had health and money issues, and just a lot of stress and sadness in our lives. My emotions were everywhere and it seemed like even the smallest thing would make me cry. When we hit the year mark, I suddenly felt so much pressure to conceive. My husband felt the same way. Sex seemed like work, I felt like the only reason we were doing it was to make a baby. Both my husband and I felt like failures every month I got my period. It mad me so sad. I am thankful my husband loves to cuddle - because that is all I wanted to do anymore. Between losing his mother to cancer, my 2 step-cousins in a horrible car accident, and a dear old friend to hepititis, it was like: what next??  My husband broke & dislocated his toes tripping over the dog, fell & broke his wrist at work - so he missed tons of work and that only added to our $$ problems. So, needless to say, our efforts to start a family were placed on the back-burner. I even stopped reading The Bump posts, it was just too hard. I know others have been trying to conceive longer than we have been, and normally I am so inspired by their strength, but for some reason it only fed my negativity. I just wanted this year to be over, so I have been hiding out under a rock until after the holidays. 

With the New Year upon us, we have decided to re-focus our attention on each other and get back on track - we want a baby, more than ever.  We are ready to leave 2010 behind and enjoy each other again, to be positive (and get a positive!) and be supportive. I can't imagine going through anything like this with anyone else. He is truely my best friend. I know he will make a great father.

This site was very helpful when we first started out, I am so glad there is a place to go and share our struggle with others in similar situations. My husband had an SA and doc confirmed he is A-OK. After my lap surgery, doc said he didn't see any reason why I coudn't get pregnant. So...I will start Clomid next month, my doctor is monitoring me and we will go from there. I know it won't be easy, but I have rested and I am ready for the fight. Bring it on!

Good luck to all of us in 2011!

 

TTC our 1st LO since September 2009
History of ENDO and ovarian cysts, currently have 1 Myoma on left ovary - but it's shrinking, yea! Clomid 100mg since Jan 2011, trigger 4/5, 1st IUI 4/7, 1 mature follie, progesterone = BFN
SHG 5/2 = all clear
IUI#2 on Mother's Day 5/8, no trigger, 2 mature follies, progesterone = BFN
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Re: Let's try this again...

  • georgia3georgia3 member

    Welcome back! 
    Sounds like you have had a really tough year, and I hope that 2011 is much, much better!  Good luck with the Clomid next cycle :)  Look forward to getting to know you-

    Dana

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  • boymamacoboymamaco member
    Welcome back! I'm sorry for everything you've been through this year. 2010 was a pretty crappy year for us too. I just try to remind myself that these challenges now will help us be better parents in the long run. Best of luck to you!
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  • MrsJordanalmondMrsJordanalmond member

    let's hear it for 2011!

    wishing you a short stay here : ) 

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  • jenn&chris2jenn&chris2 member
    Welcome back!  I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles.. Here's to 2011 & a BFP!!!!
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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member

    Oh my you have had a rough year.. O.k if I join your misery?  I am almost 39 and dh is almost 40 we also have been TTC since 9/09.  My 2010 has been a nightmare!  We lost 3 family members (2 of them in the same month-my father and grandfather), I lost 1/2 my income and dh had a bout with kidney stones.  Financially and emotionally we are spent.

     I was so hoping to FINALLY be pregnant this month, the only thing I wanted for Christmas.. but no I am not.. AGAIN.

     I feel like a ticking time bomb.. Every month that passes gets me closer to 40 (which is my cut off date-I think..) and the pressure is certainly getting to me.  My FSH is 6.5 which gives me hope... Hope is all I have so I cling to it!

     Good Luck with your journey.  I hope we both can look back at 2010 and remember it as the year before our baby dreams came true.  :)

    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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