TTC After a Loss

*|*| Nightly Confessions |*|*

What's on your minds tonight ladies?

 

 

*** Just a reminder -  the Nightly Confessions post is not so much about what you are doing this evening but more to confess something that you did today that you wouldn't tell anyone else.***

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  • I drank a whole case of soda today....by myself. I blame Pepsi for bringing back Throwback to my area.  

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  • I have wasted an entire day. I'm in my pj's (though I've showered!) and have been on the computer all day, Bumping, googling, moping, crying, feeling anxious and desperate. DH's friend has invited us out for his birthday (which we really should do) but he hasn't returned DH's call-back, and I am praying we don't get the call. Ugh.
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  • We're still TTA this month so my DH had to use a rubber this morning. He hates them and I pretend to also be inconvenienced but secretly I like using them. There's less "leakage" for me to deal with! (Sorry...TMI) Stick out tongue
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  • My eating habits have been atrocious since Christmas eve! Cookies, Candy, tons of carbs, sodas...just awful.

    I am having steak fajitas from Don Pablos tonight...(hold the sour cream) Smile

  • I only did about 2.5 hours of actual work today and still got paid for 8.

     

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  • My (now ex) friend made a website for her pregnancy. She's roughly 4 weeks along. 

    I find myself wishing her to not stay pregnant more and more. I hate myself for thinking it. But she hates kids and gets one. It's not fair. 

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  • I ate half a box of Belgium chocolate covered cookies!!!!!!!!!!! yum
  • i ate a whole bag of pretzel m&m;s from bj's
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  • I didn't do anything productive at all at work today...nothing.
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  • I just had my first FB friend announce a BFP since our loss.  I'm really happy for them (late 30-somethings, all around good people).  I do think its ballsy though to announce a pregnancy at ~6 weeks along.  Wishing them the best of luck, and wishing we all had that naivete (sp?) again.

     

     

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  • Ian and I stayed in our pj's all day and ordered pizza for lunch. 
  • I'm hoping 2011 is my year.  I'm also hoping my brother & SIL don't get pregnant (again) before I do.  They started TTC when we did & already have a 2 month old. 

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  • I really am going to go bsc on my doctors office if we are screwed out of trying next cycle b/c they dropped the ball scheduling my genetic counseling appt. I mean come on, I shouldn't have to do all the work.
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  • I went to Target today and got some Christmas things on clearance (a nicer tree skirt, some glass ornaments) and I stood in front of all of the "baby's first Christmas" ornaments for probably 10 minutes. I didn't cry (somehow). I just stared at them. I really wanted to buy one in order to will us to have a baby by next Christmas, but then I realized that would make me clinically insane, so I bought coconut M&Ms instead. I also made it out of Target for under $40, which is a miracle in and of itself. :)

    I'm on CD 2 of TTCAL cycle #1, and I keep opening my chart to see if there are any cryptic messages in there about our chances. We haven't even DONE anything yet, and I'm looking at two dots for answers. This is going to be a long cycle.

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  • I've spent the entire afternoon/evening watching the Million Dollar Listing marathon...I can't help myself - they are so ridiculous and I just love it...
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    We're still TTA this month so my DH had to use a rubber this morning. He hates them and I pretend to also be inconvenienced but secretly I like using them. There's less "leakage" for me to deal with! (Sorry...TMI) Stick out tongue

    Hahaha me too! DH is always trying to peer pressure me not to use them, he hates them, but I also appreciate the easy clean up, at least for me Devil

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    imageTapatio:
    We're still TTA this month so my DH had to use a rubber this morning. He hates them and I pretend to also be inconvenienced but secretly I like using them. There's less "leakage" for me to deal with! (Sorry...TMI) Stick out tongue

    Hahaha me too! DH is always trying to peer pressure me not to use them, he hates them, but I also appreciate the easy clean up, at least for me Devil

    lol You have to find the silver lining in TTA :)

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    BFP #4 5/14/12
    5/17/12...1st Betas- 176, P4 3.6
    5/22/12...2nd Betas- 207, P4 6.1 (MC confirmed)
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