The holidays were so hard. My husband and I watched as nieces and nephews opened our gifts and interacted with our parents. We're both sad, our house is empty and quiet. When we finally got home my husband said, I don't understand, we have done everything absolutely the way we are supposed to... we waited, we finished school, we got married, we saved money, we have careers, we bought a house, but murphy's law seems to apply.... these holidays were HARD. I burst into tears when my step father asked when we were having kids. Poor guy is probably afraid to say anything to me now. I then drank to calm my nerves. What the h*ll is wrong with me! I don't understand why I can't keep my composure. I know the holidays are hard on all of us, but this seemed exceptionally hard this year. Hugs to all you who have been going through this for the last few days... I hope 2011 has good things in store for us all! Next year I'm going on vacation to some island where I can drink and relax for the holidays if I don't get KU by the holidays.

Re: Sad days: the holidays
UGH, I'm so sorry! That does suck. I know how you feel. My little sister has 3 children, the newest only 3 months old. It is hard around the holidays watching the kids and how much joy they bring their parents and then go home alone. We've been trying since October but I just started charting in Nov. I was hoping for a BFP on Christmas day but instead I started spotting Christmas Eve
GL to you and keep your chin up!
IUI #1=BFN
IUI #2=BFP! Beta#1:87 Beta #2:1050
~It's a GIRL!~
"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
Sorry you've had a rough few days. My b!tch SIL is due in a few weeks and has complained about being pregnant since day 1. I just want to smack her. I'd love to be miserable if it meant I'd be having a baby!
My ILs seem to think that babies are contagious and that if I hold enough, I'll magically become pregnant.
Joking around, my FIL mentioned he'd looooooove to have a little granddaughter next Christmas (they only have grandsons at this point), and it'd be great if she had dark hair and that we had a couple of months to get the gift going.
I told him you can't custom order babies, they aren't pizza!
Cycle 11 - Clomid 100mg + Follistim + hCg trigger + IUI= BFP!
Beta/P4 #1(13dpo): 94.5/47, Beta/P4 #2 (17dpo): 625/19.5, Beta/P4 #3 (19dpo): 1285/18.2
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I'm sorry it was so rough. I have had a few moments where it has been tough because I really hoped I'd already be pregnant by now. The only thing I can do is continue to hope that it will happen by next year. It's really makes it hard because at this time of year you can't help but reflect back on the year that passed, the things that have changed... and the things that haven't. It's hard not to be sad for what you're missing. I hope next Christmas is better! *hugs*
That stinks, I'm sorry. We had the opposite, we are the first married so everyone is waiting on A grandchild/great grandchild. My husband was at work and both of our families were together so 20 people (from both families) were eying me as I poured wine. Only my husbands parents really know our issues. My mother even said, well you haven't been trying that long... she has no clue!
DH and I are resolved to get OURSELVES the best present next year whether I get a BFP in the next two cycles or we are adopting... we will have a little one to celebrate Christmas with next year! Goals are good.
I'm sorry to hear that, it does suck. Me and DH feel similar - we finished college, got married, got good jobs, saved etc... this is what is next, so why isnt it happening? I got to see my step-daughter Christmas day and it was awesome to see her so happy and having fun, but part of me was so sad because I wish she was mine. We just have to hang in there, and keep at it.
Sending you lots of hugs, and martini's!
Here's to 2011!!!