I have been lurking on this board for several weeks now and figured I would finally post. My husband told me about 2 weeks ago that he was leaving. I did ask him to stay through the holidays so that our 4 year old son would not think of Christmas as the time when his Daddy left. He started packing last night. All I could do was cry, We have a 7 month old daughter and all I can think of is how she will not remember us ever being a family, her first Christmas is also most likley our last family Christmas. He's leaving at the beginning of the year and it feels like he can;t get out fast enough.
My best friend is in New York and I have no other real friends left here. I feel alone and desperate at this point. As of right now it is a seperation not a divorce but the way things are going I am losing all hope of any reconcilation... Tell me this gets better, I can barely function like this.
Re: Merry Christmas to me...
I know it's hard to see it right now, but it WILL get easier with time, I promise. I was a mess the first few weeks after my H moved out. I would cry all the way to and from work, and cry every night in bed. That was 4 months ago and I can say I haven't shed a tear in over 2 months. Looking back to that first stage seems like an eternity ago, but I also feel 100x stronger now than I did back then.
I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, but the board is a great place to be.I didn't tell anyone IRL about what was going on in my personal life for about a month. Even then, I only told my parents and my BFF. I got the majority of my support from the girls on my anniversary board on TN, who I've grown really close with over the past few years. I know you said you don't have a lot of IRL support, but we're here for you, however you may need it.