My sanity is on the line.

TinyPinkBug · December 2010

Don't know how much longer before I snap! I hate the holidays, it seems to be a time for family members to die or become seriously ill. This year it has been both my mother and grandmother. My mom was in the hospital last week for her heart, now my grandmother is in the hospital and it isn't looking good. Of course their stupid Dr works out of a Utica hopsital so that is where the ambulance took them both. I haven't had more than 4 hrs sleep in any 24 hr period in over a week, I am so tired I can't stand it! Just a million and a half different reasons, right now it is Bri who is wide awake I assume because of her teeth. She is so cranky, I can't make her happy. I am so far behind in my wrapping and baking that it will be impossible to get it all done before xmas. I have NO IDEA where xmas is for either family! I could be hosting 2 Christmases at my house, or none. Dozen different reasons for that too.

My sister is 35 weeks along with her twins, everyone is very healthy but she is extremely uncomfortable, and somehow I am the bad guy for encouraging her to stick it out two more weeks becuase it is best for her boys. My SIL is about 28 weeks along with her twins and she is already experiencing signs of pre-eclampsia (sp, but I am too tired to spellcheck) so I am worried for her and her babies.

I have done all the shopping and decision making for x-mas and all DH says is that I bought too much crap for the kids and gave me a hard time the ONE time I asked him to watch the kids so I could run out to some brick&mortor stores for things I couldn't get online. I ended up having to take Tyler who was good for the first 7-8 stores but was getting anxious after that so I had to cut out a few stops. On top of all the family gifts, I had to put together 10 gifts for teachers/therapists/aides/bus drivers and small gift bags for 14 classmates. Ty and I put a lot of effort into making cinnamon cutout ornaments and decorating them for his teachers. I had them out drying on a wire rack, DH decided to put them on top of the fridge, I am short and needed to get them down (he wasn't home of course) and half of them came crashing off the wire rack and smashed on the floor. I then had just enough +1 to decorate, we decorated them (with all the mess and drama that goes with such a project in my house) and I hung them on the side of the fridge so they could dry. Wouldn't you know, Dh somehow flings open a cupboard and knocks them all to the ground breaking 4/7. Tomorrow is the last day before break and I am short gifts :-(

Oh, and I got my first call from school to come pick up Ty because he fell and got hurt. Happened while going out got the bus, he had a bloody nose. I was worried the whole way there, but he is fine. It is now 2 am and I just want sleep, no matter what the kids will be up in less than 5 hrs. I hate my DH this second because he has been sleeping soundly now for 4 hours and will sleep uninterupted until morning. I haven't even gotten to take a shower by myself in I don't even know how long.

jewelsonu · December 2010

Big hugs. I'm sorry everything seems to be going badly. it always amazes me what dh can sleep through while I am up with one of the kids. don't worry about the baking. If it doesn't happen it doesn't happen.

mrsoc · December 2010

So sorry M! That is a lot. I wish that I had today off so I could come over there, so you could get some things done and some sleep. I wish that your DH could be more supportive and I will pray for all of your family members. What gets done gets done, and what does, doesn't.

JenJar · December 2010

I hope just venting a little was helpful and hopefully you were able to get some rest. You definitely need to take care of yourself, too! I'm sorry it's all so overwhelming right now. The holidays will be over soon and hopefully you'll be able to return to a more normal schedule.

MrsWhiteonWhiteSt · December 2010

That's a lot for anyone's plate. Easier said than done- but try to relax a little. Maybe you can turn the broken ornaments into potpourri sachets?

emiliemetcalf · December 2010

M, I'm around all day if you want me to watch the kids so you can have a few hours to yourself. My DH is home too to help. Let me know.

Maybe if you don't do the baking and and cleaning and hosting and everything else, your husband will get the hint that that much on one person is unrealistic. My DH will leave empty cereal boxes, k-cups, etc all over the counter and after telling him two or three times that I would no longer throw his trash away, I started leaving it, sometimes for days at a time, until he realizes what a mess he makes. Now most of the time he does better about cleaning up (or takes my suggestions to clean better).

TinyPinkBug · December 2010

Thanks for the good words everyone. I was hoping to feel better after writing this, but it only lasted about an hour. Around 3:30 am I broke down, Bri still wouldn't sleep. I just laid down on her bed and cried hysterically like a baby with my head in a pillow. (she thought I was playing a game) I was loud enough to wake up DH who came in and took Bri who of course started to cry and scream herself. Once I calmed down I was able to go back in so we could put her to sleep together. 7am came and like clock work both kids were up. DH stayed home and took both the kids so I could sleep in. I only slept until 9:30, but I got to take a shower and get dressed by myself! They are in the basement playing right now, I still haven't seen them all this morning. But I know both the kids are going to be so happy to see me and give me big hugs!

BelhurstBride · December 2010

I am so sorry you're going through all of that.

Telyco · December 2010

I'm really sorry....the holidays are such a love/hate time!!

I'm glad your DH helped you out this morning. I hope things have hit bottom and will only get better from here!!

ArcticFox · December 2010

OHhh, I'm so sorry

It sounds like you are going through so much, that has got to be rough. I've been through bad times before, but not as much with two kids. I'm sorry it sounds like you don't have much support.. you shouldn't have to be doing all of the cooking, cleaning, baking, wrapping, shopping (although I have been), but all that other stuff on top of it is too much. I hope you are able to take it easy at some point and take a nice hot shower, maybe when the kids go to bed. I've been there when I haven't showered for days.. a week perhaps.. and it just makes me crazy. So sorry

wendyj · December 2010

I'm sorry - that is a lot to deal with all at once. I'm glad DH woke up (literally and figuratively) and gave you a hand. I hope you're able to find some more time to relax over the next couple of days so you can enjoy Christmas with your DH and kids.

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