I have days where I feel normal. A lot of those types of days are correlated to how well my baby sleeps for me during the evening and during the day. Other days when I am lacking sleep, I am extremely agitated and pissed off at my husband and my baby. I am impatient with my kids and snap at them. I don't have any thoughts of hurting anyone or myself but it's just that agitated, irritated feeling...because my life is so upside down right now. I am constantly nagging and yelling at my husband and kids if they aren't quiet enough and the baby wakes (my baby is a Horrible sleeper).
So how do i know if it's just normal - because I am tired, because i have a fussy baby, because all I do 24-7 is nurse, change diapers, rock to sleep, shsshh, and repeat? Is that normal? At my 6 wk check up with the OB she said I sound normal because I am adjusting to a whole lot with a new baby and 3 kids. She didn't think I needed medication.
But why do I feel like I need some medication to help me get through this? Is it OK to WANT some pills to help me cope with everything? To give me more patience and not be such a biotch to the people I love the most?
Re: How do I know if I need medication?
You are under a lot of stress with a new baby and three other kids - I would say that feeling exhaused and grouchy is normal for your situation. If you are feeling overwhelmed, I would start with asking your OB to refer you to a therapist. Whether it is PPD or not, a therapist can definitely help you find ways to cope with the agitation you are feeling. After an evaluation, they can also determine if medication would be beneficial and help you understand what antidepressants can and can not achieve.
I would ignore this advice which is neither helpful nor accurate. Suggesting that meds "alter your brain chemistry" in this way sort of implies that taking medication is bad. I'm sure none of us want to take meds but, let's face it, sometimes the alternative is worse. It is also not necessarily hard to get off meds- speaking from personal experience, I never had any trouble.
I think talk therapy is always great but sometimes it may not be enough. That's something only you and your doctor can and should decide.
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