Well, I'm out (feeling b!tchy mentioned)

jr63_2020 · December 2010

After another temp drop and BFN this morning, I'm done with this cycle. And last night, I was spotting right before I put in the progesterone, which told me my body WANTS to have AF but can't yet because of the meds.

I threw a big fit on the phone to my sister yesterday!! Like yelling, crying, the whole 9. And then at night, when I got into bed w/o taking my PNV, MH was like "Don't you have to take them?" and I flipped! I was like "Why should I take them?? What's the point??" (Him: "Okayyyyy..but just take them."). I'm pissed this cycle! Previously, I was sad, this cycle I'm mad.

And you know what else? :::Frustrating confession below.:::

I somehow convinced myself that the "fluke" wasn't the m/c. The fluke was that I got pg at all and I m/c because there's something wrong with me.

I wish I could just go back to bed.

inlovewithB · December 2010

I am so sorry!

bryanandkatrina · December 2010

((((HUGEHUGS))))

I'm so sorry about the temp drop and BFN.

stephsteph77 · December 2010

Ugh, I'm so sorry. Big giant hugs to you!

jinx75 · December 2010

I can feel your frustration and I am so sorry. I hope AF shows soon so you can move on.

FWIW stop beating yourself up it's not a fluke you got pregnant and there is nothing wrong with you. You are going to get your take home baby I know it!

tigers413 · December 2010

I am sorry Sad

big hugs!!!

Izabella22 · December 2010

I'm so sorry *HUGS* Try to go easy on yourself.

Tapatio · December 2010

I'm so sorry ((hugs)).

CashewsMommy · December 2010

((((hugs))))

Are you sure you ovulated when FF says? By looking at it i'd guess you ovulated later and are really only 11DPO.

jertie · December 2010

I'm so sorry. ((HUGE HUGS)) I hate that we all have millions of thoughts every day and that of all the thoughts we have, we tend to grab on to the worst thought in the batch and just keep thinking and thinking about it until we believe it. The mind really can suck sometimes. ((More hugs))

JulsW · December 2010

Big ((Hugs)). I am so sorry.I know it is hard but don't beat yourself up. The PG was not the fluke, and you are in no way what so ever responsible for the m/c. It is not your fault. sending thoughts and prayers for you on this rough day.

MrsR25 · December 2010

I'm sorry

Amanda&Jared · December 2010

aww... sorry you're feeling bad! wish it could be easier for all of us!

Ann003 · December 2010

I am so sorry. ((hugs)) You are not alone in thinking that the pregnancy was the fluke. I also feel that way sometimes. I sincerely hope that we are both wrong.

stacylynn008 · December 2010

"I somehow convinced myself that the "fluke" wasn't the m/c. The fluke was that I got pg at all and I m/c because there's something wrong with me."

I think that exact same thing sometimes... People try to give you the positive spin of "well at least you know you can get PG" my response in my head is typically "well you don't know if I will be able to get PG again"

Hang in there! Know that you are not alone in that line of thinking and try to hope for the best Its all we can do sometimes...

jr63_2020 · December 2010

CashewsMommy:
((((hugs))))

Are you sure you ovulated when FF says? By looking at it i'd guess you ovulated later and are really only 11DPO.

Unfortunately, yes...I triggered this month and I believe the lower temp was like, 4 days later. Thanks to everyone else, too. I appreciate all the kind words and I'm sure I'll get over myself soon.