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Is this just a few bad days or PPD?

ebmartinebmartin
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Hello there, I have never posted on this board because I never dreamed I may be PPD, but here goes.

Holidays are stressful for everyone, that is a given.  But lately I have been not myself.  Nothing to do with DD, I love her to pieces and do not have any bad feelings towards or about her.  I am super busy at work and miss her like crazy there and when I get home it is rush rush rush to get dinner, dishes, and other housework done and it seems like it's bath and bedtime before I know it.  I don't sit down to rest until nighttime and by then I am so tired that I don't want to do anything but get my shower and crawl in the bed.  DH helps with dinner and cleaning up the table, but other than that it seems like he would rather play on the computer than do anything else (he plays WoW).  We had a discussion about our (lack of) sex life a few weeks ago and there has been improvement there but sometimes I just feel like I do it just to please him, not because I genuinely want to.  I don't know if this is just stress, a few bad days in a row, or PPD.  I'm just not super happy anymore unless I'm with DD.  I want to be, but I'm just not.  Do I talk to my OB about this or what?  Sometimes I just want the world to go away and it be just me and DD and I have thoughts of all this worst-case-scenario stuff happening (like what if I accidentally dropped the storybook and hurt DD or what if I hurt her while buckling her in the carseat)...is this paranoia or PPD? I'm so confused.  I think a lot of this has to do with my parents divorcing after almost 30 years and my dad being a total jackass and not wanting anything to do with me and DD...as a parent now I just don't understand wanting NOTHING to do with your child!  TIA

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Re: Is this just a few bad days or PPD?

  • shibby00shibby00 member
    I never in a million years thought I would get PPD, but I did and it was bad.  I'd say talk to your OB and see if you can get a referral for a therapist.  I have been going to talk to a counselor for 3 months now and it has helped so much.  The holidays are very hard for me also, my Mom passed away very unexpectedly in June '09 and I never dealt with the grief.  So now I'm processing those emotions as well as dealing with the PPD.  I also never thought I would see a therapist, but I am and it is helping so much!  It is so wonderful to have a safe place to go to release all the feelings/emotions trapped in me and have no fear of judgement.  My DH is not exactly supportive of me being an emotional basketcase, so the therapist is a lifesaver.  HTH  and just so you know:  It DOES get better.
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