i just need to vent, to lay it all out there and i don't know where else to turn. i have been feeling kind of down and melancholy randomly over the past month or so and it seems to really be coming to a head this week. i am not sure if i am exhausted or run down or what. i am sure a large part of it can be attributed to the hormonal change my body is going through after weaning from pumping/bfing for over 14 months. the peaches and the peanut are doing wonderfully, as is dh, so it isn't that. i think i feel restless and want to do more. i just hate that there is such a lack of money, a lack of personal time and space, a lack of time with my husband, a lack of time in general really; and the volume of household chores and items on the to do list that never get done is just wearing me down. i find myself retreating more and more to avoid doing what needs to be done because it is just so monotonous and repetitive and overwhelming. i am wondering if maybe i miss working and need to start thinking about going back to work. but then the thought of leaving the peaches with someone else for the day makes me so sad
maybe i need to look towards actually pursuing some of my goals and dreams. i don't know, i just know something needs to change so i can pull myself out of this funk.
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aww, rach, i'm so sorry you're feeling this way. what you're describing is kind of how i feel on the weekends. i get so stir crazy and get total cabin fever. the only thing that helps me is getting out. but i know you do that already!
it sounds like you do miss working, miss the adult interaction. this may sound awful, but going back to work has saved my sanity. i hate that the boys are being taken care of by someone else, but i need that adult time during the day. it'd be even better if i could work part time and have them in daycare part time, but unfortunately that isn't an option for me. might it be for you?
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Have you ever seen the British show "How Clean is Your House" on BBC America? I swear my house is starting to look like one of the disgusting hovels they clean up on that show. I know it's not really that bad, but sometimes I feel like it. I'm stuck so far into a funk that I can't seem to motivate myself to do even the simplest non-baby related things.
Like you, I think a big part of my funk is that I'm out of work and not really interacting with adults aside from my H and our families. I want to get back to work, or go back to school or SOMETHING, but I can't stand the idea of leaving my precious little frijoles with a sitter/nanny/day care provider.
I really don't have any advice, but I am so glad you posted this. It makes me feel not quite as pathetic for being so stuck.
Girl, I think we're leading very similar lives oftentimes...I feel the EXACT same way. ?I'm going to email you b/c I think my response on here would be too long... but just wanted you to know you're in good company. ?;( ?Wish we lived closer so we could hang out and go through the repetitive baby care tasks together! ?I'll write soon -?
Katie?
I'm sorry you are in a funk. I don't have any words of wisdom, but I hope it is brief.
On a completely and totally unrelated note, I read your blog, and your kiddos are much more polite than mine. My girls play the thank you game, where they bring us something and we say thank you. But when we offer it back to them, they just snatch it up and run away. No thank yous at all from them.
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I know how you feel. I wish there was something that i could do to help. I know how it feels to have the to do list and things just don't get done. One of the things i did, was i let my babies spend the night at grandma's for a day and a half and got something done around my house and had some me time. I know that may not be available to you, but it really did help. I missed my babies terribly since they were 2 hours away, but it felt good to actually accomplish a task. I tackled my closet in that time, and ended up going out with friends that night.
Hope you feel better soon.
Kelly