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Going through my FOURTH miscarriage: Update

I cannot believe this is freaking happening to me again. I feel like I can't breathe. I found out I was pregnant this past weekend. I had no clue I was even pregnant, I had a "normal' period that lasted 5 days, with cramps and everything. It wasn't until a week and a half later when I started noticing the cramps and sore breasts. I took an hpt on Saturday, fully expecting it to be negative but it was positive. Beta on Monday was 1360 at 23 dpiui. I started having really really bad cramps and spotting last night. Had an u/s today and my RE couldn't find anything in my uterus and said it might be ectopic (waiting to get results of beta #2 to confirm). It's either that or another chemical. Why does this keep happening to me?? My RE thinks my 2 other chemicals could have been early ectopics. But I never had and don't have any sharp stabbing pains on either side.

I've gotten to the point where I don't think I will ever have a baby. I freaking hate IF. It is so unfair.

UPDATE: I just got off the phone with my RE. My numbers are dropping but he still thinks its an ectopic since he saw nothing in my uterus (and I'm 5 1/2 weeks). He also said that my 2 other chemicals might have also been ectopics as well b/c I have a blocked tube. We decided only the bleeding stops and everything calms down I will start the IVF process next month. Thanks so much for the replies, it really means a lot.

TTC #1 since 7/09
Dx: LPD, underdeveloped follicles, blocked left tube
3 C/P, 1 BO, 1 Ectopic
IVF#1=BFN (3/11)
FET#1=BFP

Re: Going through my FOURTH miscarriage: Update

  • It's so so so unfair....and i know nothing i say will ease ur pain.

    Im sorry, and ((HUGS))

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  • I am so sorry ((HUGS)). It is completely unfair...I wish there was something I could say or do to take the pain away.

    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
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  • I am so very sorry ((HUGS))
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  • ((hugs))  I am so so sorry.  It sucks and there is nothing I can say to make it better, but I wish I could.  I know how you feel.  I have had 5 and each time is like another knife to the heart.

    If you ever want to talk, I'm here.

     

    *P/SAIFW* TTC since 1/08 Clomid, 2 IUIs, 4 IVFs, FET 7 losses Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I am so very sorry. Thinking of you and sending huge hugs! Take care!
    Crohn's resulting in colectomy with J-Pouch surgery in 2000/2001.
    TTC since August 2008
    IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
    IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
    Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
    "Let it go, this too shall pass."
  • i'm so sorry

    it just sucks

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    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
  • I am so sorry for your pain (((HUGS)))
  • I'm so incredibly sorry :( IF is so freaking unfair. Is your RE going to do RPL testing? Thinking of you.... ((((hugs))))
    TTC since 8/09
    DX: PCO, ENDO, High NK, MTHFR
    8/10 = Lap to remove Endo

    2 Femara TI, 3 Follistim IUI = BFN & 1 c/p
    IVF #1 - BFP - boy/girl Twins!

    Ben and Reese born at 34w2d!
  • I'm sorry you are going through this!
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  • I am so very sorry for your losses. I know there is nothing that will really help the pain right now but we're all here for you. IF is brutally unfair. (((hugs)))
    DX PCOS w/IR 01/08.
    Currently pg with our 1st after 6.5 yrs of IF (thank you IVF)
     
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  • ::hugs::

    I am so so sorry

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • So sorry sweetie.  I wish I could say something to make it better.

    Hang in there....  Hopefully they can figure out why this keeps happening...

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    Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
    2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
    4 failed IUIs in 2010
    IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
    Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
    Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
  • I am sorry..I agree IF SUCKS!!
    Michelle
    Blythe Elizabeth is here March 27,2012
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  • I am so so sorry that you are going through this again, I can't even fathom the pain you must be feeling.  I hope that you are able to find out why this is happening.  If I were you, I would find an RE that specializes in recurrent miscarriages.  Keeping you in my T&P.   (((hugs)))
    TTK 9/06 / TTC 10/08 / Twins 12/11 / Life Blog
    5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
    IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
    FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
    twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
    Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first

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  • I am so so sorry! IF is SO unfair :(

    (((BigHugs)))

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  • I am so sorry to hear this. I've been thinking of you this week and was hoping that everything was fine.

    Biggest of hugs! 

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  • I know that sorry doesn't suffice, but I hate that you are having to go through this again.  IF and loss are so cruel.  We're here for you when you need us.
    Todd & Kristin, 3.10.07

    After 5.5 years of loss, heartbreak, and empty arms, our dreams were fulfilled through the beautiful, selfless gift of adoption. We are amazingly blessed!

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  • I am so sorry. IF is so unfair.?
    DS born 7.30.11
  • I am so sorry.  IF is so unfair.

    ((hugs))

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  • I'm so sorry you are going through this!
    ::: Married June 2003:::
    TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008
    Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo
    DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA
    Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN
    IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN
    IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response
    IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable
    IVF# 4= c/p
    ***CCRM ODWU***
    Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus
    Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally
    ***New RE***
    DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. 
    IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled
    IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5
    Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015


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  • I'm so sorry.  ((HUGS))

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    Me= 37 and DH = 41 

    Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)

    IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN

    IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.

    IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132.  Lil is here!

    TTC#2:  Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.

    IVF #4:  BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #5:  MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #6:  (New RE):  Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN

    FET#1:  BFN

  • I'm so sorry sweetie ((hugs)).  Could they remove your tubes maybe to stop the ectopics since you're doing IVF anyway?

    TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
    2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
    IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
    IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN :(
    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
    Lap 7/21/10
    IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
    FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!

     

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  ((hugs))
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  • I am so sorry. ((hugs))
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    After 2 years & 2 losses, our little man arrived 8-2011.
  • I am so, so sorry.  I hope they can fix that tube for you and I hope that the IVF is the answer for you!
  • I am very sorry for what you are going through.
  • I'm so, so, sorry.  {{hugs}}
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  • IF is so unfair! HUGS! I'm so sorry.
    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

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  • I'm so so sorry.   I've had 2 m/c and an ectopic.  It sucks and is not fair at all.  (((HUGS)))  I hope your beta goes down fast.
    ***SAIFW***
    TTC since 2008
    One blocked Tube
    Ectopic pregnancy November 2008
    M/C at 6 weeks in January 2010
    M/C at 8 weeks (blighted ovum) May 2010

    3 IUIs with Gonal-f, Sept, Oct, November 2010 = BFN
    IVF#1 1/2011 - 32 eggs retrieved, 26 fertilized, 2 trans. = BFN
    Time to regroup and heal and FET at some point
  • I am so so sorry you are going through this.  I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.  I know there are no words to say to make you feel better, but just know that you are not alone.  I have gone through 6 early miscarriages.  I am starting my IVF stims on Friday, so I know exactly how you feel.  Keep your head up and again I am so sorry for your loss.
  • I'm so sorry hon.  If you need anything, we're here for you.  Hugs
    Surprise BFP after 5 yrs of TTC
  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  It's so unfair.  (((Hugs)))
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  • I'm so sorry:< It's so unfair.
    PAIF and SAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC since 2007
    6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
    IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
    IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
    Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
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  • Aw hell!  I saw your other posts and have been thinking about you!  I got on tonight to see how you were doing and if you had any updates.  I am soooo sorry that it is ending this way for you yet again.  Ive had 1 m/c and I cant imagine the despair you are feeling with your 4th.  It's just not fair!  I was hoping and wishing and praying that things were gunna turn up for you.   Crying
    TTC#2: septum removed, 2 losses, Stage 2 Endo, thin lining, slight MFI
    iui #5 2/7 + 2/8 = BFP!! 11 dpiui
    Beta #1 2/18 11dpiui= 46, Beta #2 13dpiui 150, Beta #3 16dpiui 584!!
    u/s revealed triplets! Baby B 3rd loss 8w2d. Twins! EDD 10/31/11 * c/s scheduled 10/12/11 My NEW BLOG Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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