TTC After a Loss
Being a control freak and TTC does not work well... (vent)
As usual here is my daily vent 
I am a huge control freak. I like the when, where, what, why and how with every situation. Fertility medications are nice because you get some control and know what is going on every step of the way but d*mn if it still is so hard. I failed my femara cycle and the doctor was like okay we will try clomid but just wait a couple weeks and see what happens (like if AF comes or not). I am a horrible person and said screw it and started taking prometrium. Even my GYN did not understand why they wanted me to wait around.. if you have no mature follicles whats the point? Anyways.. I am about to take day 4 of prometrium and it SUCKS!! I hate wondering when AF will come.. 3 days after... 7 days after... AND I am going to see a new fertility doctor next tuesday so I have no clue what they will say to do!!! AND I have to pay $45 bucks to get my f-ing records from my old fertility doctor... WHAT!?! Ugh... this is such a long process. Anyone else a control freak and trying to deal with TTC too?
I am a huge control freak. I like the when, where, what, why and how with every situation. Fertility medications are nice because you get some control and know what is going on every step of the way but d*mn if it still is so hard. I failed my femara cycle and the doctor was like okay we will try clomid but just wait a couple weeks and see what happens (like if AF comes or not). I am a horrible person and said screw it and started taking prometrium. Even my GYN did not understand why they wanted me to wait around.. if you have no mature follicles whats the point? Anyways.. I am about to take day 4 of prometrium and it SUCKS!! I hate wondering when AF will come.. 3 days after... 7 days after... AND I am going to see a new fertility doctor next tuesday so I have no clue what they will say to do!!! AND I have to pay $45 bucks to get my f-ing records from my old fertility doctor... WHAT!?! Ugh... this is such a long process. Anyone else a control freak and trying to deal with TTC too? This discussion has been closed.
Re: Being a control freak and TTC does not work well... (vent)
Dx: MFI- 3% morph
IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
Ooooh Ooooh meeee meeeee :::raises hand:::
When I was taking my Provera, it was absolutely killing me not knowing when AF would finally come - if she would ever come. She took a little longer than I had heard most people experience, which of course made me freak out even more. Luckily she did finally show her nasty face...
And now I am onto even more waiting - last Clomid does is CD7 Saturday and then the waiting game continues. My OB said I would hopefully O anytime from 5-10 days after the last dose, but of course it could be even later. Sigh.
And then finally of course I'll have the lovely 2WW - ugh!
Will the waiting never end?!?!?!
Yup, total control freak here! Oh, and I am also a perfectionist who has never failed at anything I've ever seriously attempted... except making a healthy baby. It is SO infuriating to not be able to control this process! I totally feel your pain.
I hope you get AF soon so you can move forward with the Clomid cycle! **throws buckets of AF dust at krisnogard**
BFP 5/9/10. U/S - no heartbeat 6/2/10 (7 weeks). Induced miscarriage 6/7/10.
Chemical pregnancies 12/2/10, 1/3/11, and 2/7/11.
dx: RPL due to poor quality uterine lining; begin progesterone January 2011
BFP 3/10/11. EDD 11/19/11. E arrived 11/15/11!
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Another control freak here... I hate the lack of control. I am so miserably type A. I like planning everything out and then working really hard for the outcomes I want. I HATE feeling like a failure, which is certainly the way my miscarriage has made me feel. Ick... and now the little song my mom used to sing to me when I was little is stuck in my head. I hated it then and I still do now...
"Have patience, have patience, don't be in such a hurray! When you get inpatient, you only start to worry. Remember, remember, that God is patient too, and think of all the times when others have to wait on you..."
So true, but pure torture.
BFP#2 3/16/11, beta 138; 4/12 Baby/HB DS born 9/10/11 at 29w4d due to partial abruption and PTL
BFP#3 8/19/13 Another boy! 17P, modified bedrest and Nifedipine helped us have a termie! DS2 born 4/19/14 at 38w5d.