It's is 6 am and I have been up for 2.5 hours. I am annoyed with my body right now. These contrax are driving me insane. They will be regular enough that I start timing them and then right around the 1 hour mark- they will stop completely. I've only got a few days left until my c/s and I feel like I am stuck here in limbo- can't go to work like this, can't even really telework for long periods b/c it hurts to sit still too long. DH doesn't want me out and about in case something happens but what if it happens while I'm at home alone? He works an hour away- what's he going to do about it? Either way, I've got to wait for him to come to me. I've already got cabin fever and I'm not even really stuck here yet! But I also don't really have anything that I need to do. I'll just end up spending money that we don't need to spend. The hi-light of my day is driving Gavin to/from daycare. Lovely.
Gavin has wet the bed for the past 2 nights. I know why it's happening... he is refusing to empty his bladder before bed. He pees just a tiny amount and then says he is done and honestly, I'm too tired to fight with him so I've just let it go. But then he wets the bed at 4:30 am and we're up from then on. Of course, this time I was already up anyway thanks to my lovely insomnia. But I am worried about how all this is going to go down while I'm in the hospital/recovering. I don't know if MIL will want to deal with that and she might just put him in Pull Ups for bed and then we will have to deal with un-doing that again later.
I am so sick of my dog. She is driving me insane. She whines/barks constantly and keeps pooping in the house. Flame me if you want but the truth is, babies/kids come before pets and I don't have the time or energy to give her the attention that she needs right now and I know its only going to get worse. I'd love to go all Dog Whisperer and take her for walks and get her excess energy out, but that's not gonna happen and I just need her to shut up and behave. Same goes for our psychotic cat who thinks its fun to terrorize our nice calm cat all day long.
And then there's my mom. She has to wear the air cast/no weight on it for 4-6 weeks. I feel so guilty b/c it happened here at our house when she was coming to help me. It could be so much worse, but this is just really bad timing and she acts like she'll still be able to help me with all the newborn stuff. Ummm, no mom, you can't take care of a newborn without putting weight on your foot! And she was like, well, I can hold/feed the baby. No , I'm BF- which kind of requires ME to hold the baby. Like ALL THE TIME in the beginning. Oh and this really complicates Christmas too... not even sure how we're going to handle that with her out of commission!
UGH... TOO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT!