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s/o NICU christmas

kamcfarlanekamcfarlane member
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to the ladies here that will be spending their holiday season in the NICU -

i just wanted to know that my heart is with you and will be with you through the entire season.  my son spent his first christmas in the NICU 2 years ago and it was one of the hardest things i've ever been through. the constant christmas music taunting me, reminding me that while everyone was enjoying the most wonderful time of the year, i was leaving my baby boy alone. it didn't matter how much he wasn't going to remember, what mattered was that my baby boy didn't deserve to spend his first christmas in the NICU.

please know that i'll be thinking of you all and that, even though it sucks, you will get through it. take care of yourself and do whatever it takes to survive. we completely ignored christmas. the entire day, we kept saying happy thursday - under no circumstances could i allow myself to accept that DS was spending christmas in the hospital. it was immature and i'm sure it looked stupid to anyone on the outside, but it's what we had to do to get through it.

big hugs to each and every one of you.

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Re: s/o NICU christmas

  • stephanie073stephanie073

    It's still unclear whether we'll be spending Christmas in the NICU with Jocelyn, but we've been warned that it's unlikely that she'll come home for Christmas. Every year I wait for our local radio station to play their continuous Christmas music from the day before Thanksgiving until the day of or the day after Christmas (kind of depends sometimes). This year...I can't even stand to listen to it. I cry every single time I think about her not being with Jimmy and I for her first Christmas. Thank you so much for this post, our little girl had her first setback today so my husband and I are pretty bummed out. Hugs from us  

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  • lemen99lemen99 member
    HUGS!!!
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  • mfisher123mfisher123
    imagekamcfarlane:

    to the ladies here that will be spending their holiday season in the NICU -

    i just wanted to know that my heart is with you and will be with you through the entire season.  my son spent his first christmas in the NICU 2 years ago and it was one of the hardest things i've ever been through. the constant christmas music taunting me, reminding me that while everyone was enjoying the most wonderful time of the year, i was leaving my baby boy alone. it didn't matter how much he wasn't going to remember, what mattered was that my baby boy didn't deserve to spend his first christmas in the NICU.

    please know that i'll be thinking of you all and that, even though it sucks, you will get through it. take care of yourself and do whatever it takes to survive. we completely ignored christmas. the entire day, we kept saying happy thursday - under no circumstances could i allow myself to accept that DS was spending christmas in the hospital. it was immature and i'm sure it looked stupid to anyone on the outside, but it's what we had to do to get through it.

    big hugs to each and every one of you.

     

    I totally agree. DD spent her first Christmas in the NICU last year, and I was a miserable b*tch for the whole month of December. We didn't put up a tree, no decorations around the house, and certainly no Christmas music. I especially hated that Kay Jewelers commercial with the mom rocking the baby, and the dad coming in and turning on the tree lights saying, "It's our first Christmas as a family"....I was seriously awful.

     For those families who will be in that boat this year, know that you aren't alone. So many of us have been there, done that, and are thinking and praying for you every step of the way.

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