Having a hard time...
I'm sorry to vent ladies, I've been trying to be really positive, I guess I am just really bummed to be back at work after five days off. Things are not going very well at my firm and I'm looking for other positions elsewhere.
I'm just kind of "stuck". I wish that things would get easier. I know it's not right, but I feel like everything I have been through should entitle me to a little easier ride, right? Yah, I know it doesn't usually work out that way. I hate feeling down. I hate feeling like there is nothing to really look forward to.
On top of everything that happened this weekend (getting stood up, dealing with seeing the guy I dated a year ago and having him say he regretted things, etc) DS slept horribly last night, so I am sure that's contributing to all of these feelings because I am tired.
I am just not sure what to do. I don't usually get down like this and I need to get out of this funk. Any suggestions would be great!
Re: Having a hard time...
That happens to me sometimes too. I find that if I ride the wave, things calm down after a bit. I would suggest you start by stopping at Starbucks, and then update your resume when you get a chance. After work, go buy something new for your house or yourself, and admire it/how hot you look in it when you get home. Many times that gets me through the day. If that doesn't work, I make a hair appt. Something about new cut/color always brightens my outlook.
Sorry it'a crappy Monday! ((HUGS))
I hear you completely. I've been feeling that way for several weeks.
I know you did what Shelley said to do already, all I can add is go buy yourself a pair of hot shoes.
DD2 11.17.08
I'm so sorry things suck right now.
I believe it's really important to LOVE your job. We spend so much time there and really need to feel productive and appreciated. Definitely see what else is out there.
And there is SO much to look forward to! You get to watch P grow up! Sometimes I cry because I am so lucky that I get to play such a huge role in DS's life.
When I get really down (because, honestly, shiit totally sucks in general right now), I try to appreciate what I do have. The most important thing always boils down to DS's health. I think about what my life would be like if he had some terminal disease or some major health issue. It pretty quickly snaps me into how much I have, because I truly would be destroyed if there were something wrong with him. I feel destroyed now, but I have so much.
It sounds like you have a lot of family support. I would take advantage of that by letting them watch P while you do what feels good to you, like go out with girlfriends, get a massage, get a haircut, go for a run, or just spend a lazy afternoon reading a trashy novel. It's important to take care of yourself.
You might also want to see your counselor or, if things are really bad, considering antidepressants. I'm not there yet, but it's always in the back of my head that that's an option.