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Blubbering mess

My baby sister (23 yrs old, married 2yrs, has 1yr old son) just text me a pic of her son in a big brother shirt. She's 2 months preg. This will make #18 niece/nephew. I just want it to be my turn! I am happy her dreams can come true, it just makes my dreams hurt!
Married '02, TTC May '05

Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

Phillipians 4:6,7

Re: Blubbering mess

  • Oh sweetie. (((HUGS))) I'm sorry. I have a good feeling it's going to be your turn very very soon.
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  • imageetoyama:
    Oh sweetie. (((HUGS))) I'm sorry. I have a good feeling it's going to be your turn very very soon.

     I hope so. It's the only thing that's going to make this bearable. I mean #18! Seriously my siblings are baby factories.

    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

    Phillipians 4:6,7

  • I'm so sorry! (HUGS) You will have your turn, hopefully soon!
    Me-28 Stage II Endometrosis, DH-29 Severe MFI TTC#1 since July 2010 DH-Varicocele Surgery 3/2011 Me-Laproscopic Surgery 8/2012 Stage II Endometrosis, removed cysts IVF # 1 October 2012 BCP-9/12-10/2 Follitism 300-10/4-10/14 Ganirelex 10/8-10/15 ER 10/17 (20 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 13 fertilized) ET 10/22 Beta 1 11/2 375 Beta 2 11/5 951 Beta 3/ U/S 11/12 BabyFruit Ticker Anniversary
  • ((HUGS)) I'm sure I would have thrown my phone across the room if I would get a text message like that. It's ok to be angry & hurt because that is how we feel. We just don't have any answers as to why & that is why it hurts so much. 
  • Oh, I know how hard that is!  It will be your turn soon!!!
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  • ((hugs))
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    After 2 years & 2 losses, our little man arrived 8-2011.
  • I'm sorry. That is really rough. You are allowed to cry and be sad. (((hugs)))
    DS born 7.30.11
  • I'm so sorry. That's just so rough to deal with :(
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  • I am so sorry!  Pregnancy announcements just never get any easier!  I hope it's your turn very soon!
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  • ((Big hugs)) I'm so sorry hun. I know anything we say doesn't make it better, but just know it will be your turn here soon enough!
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  • I am so sorry:( I'm sure it sucks to be lapped twice. Huge hugs. It will be your turn soon.
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    TTC since 2007
    6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
    IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
    IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
    Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
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  • Oh, hon...it's always hard hearing stuff like that. I'm sorry you have to deal with these feelings. I hope it's your turn soon! *hugs*
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  • Thanks ladies! I knew if anyone would understand, it'd be y'all. I appreciate all the kind words. XOXO
    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

    Phillipians 4:6,7

  • Ugh... I'm so sorry.  I know how you feel though, my little brother is 21 and has two kids and i'm 30 with none.  It's hard.  I love my niece and nephew to death though. 
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    TTC #1 since Oct 2006 with severe MFI.
    Summer/Fall 2011 - DH on clomid. Helped with morphology and motility, but count still under 1 million.
    February 2011 - First RE appointment to discuss options.
    March 2011 - We aren't sure what we are going to do right now. DH isn't sure about DS.
    ~SAIFW~
  • So sorry hun.  That really stinks.  Big Hugs.

    Just try to hang in there.  It will be our turns soon!!!!!!!!

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    Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
    2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
    4 failed IUIs in 2010
    IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
    Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
    Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
  • I am so sorry!!!! :( I know how you are feeling right now! It really does just flat out suck and there isn't much that will make you feel better -- or right now anyways! hugs! =)
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  • aww I'm sorry sweetie.

    I'm crossing my fingers and toes this is your turn. ((hugs))

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  • Thanks girlies! I really do luv ya! I've not cried in over an hour. I think I'm done. I'm going to just try to focus on our appointment this week and not let the negative feelings ruin the hope and happiness I had been feeling. Y'all are seriously the greatest! I wish I could hug all of you!
    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

    Phillipians 4:6,7

  • Oh ouch.  So sorry sweetie, that stings.
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  • Hugs to you.  Unfortunately, I think most of us can totally relate.  I hope your IVF cycle brings you a BFP and you can be pregnant very soon.
    TTC #1 since October 2008. Dealing with MFI.
    IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
    IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
    IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
    Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
    IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
    Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
    Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
    IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
    IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
    ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer :(
    Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
    IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
    IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
    **P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**

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  • I'm so so sorry.  Big *hugs* to you...
    Lilypie Waiting to Adopt tickers
    3 IUI's, 2 IVF's , 1 FET , 1 IVF w/ Gestational Carrier, and 1 FET using adopted embryo's = ALL BFNs
    We are adopting!

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  • (((hugs))) I'm so sorry.
    My Wonderful Sister is my GC!!!! 3 IUIs, 2 unmedicated, 1 50mg of Clomid = All BFNs Next step IVF!!!! Melinda & Michael 5*6*06 God Bless The Broken Road
  • I'm sorry hon...I know how hard that must be. Ugh...sending big hugs your way..
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  • ((hugs)) I'm so sorry. I was a blubbering mess yesterday (and part of today) after this failed iui. Weird but sometimes a good cry helps. Soon it will be your turn to share the good news with everyone!
    *SAIF* always welcome
    TTC since October 2007
    Dx with Unexplained IF
    IUI #1-3 w/clomid: Jan-March 2010...BFN
    IUI #4 w/injectables: April 2010...BFP
    1st u/s: 5/17-one little perfect hb@7w2d, 2nd u/s: 6/5-no hb@10w;
    missed miscarriage: 6/10 d&c
    IUI #5-7 w/injectables: Sept 2010-Jan 2011...BFFN
    IVF #1: Feb/March 2011...pretty please let this work!!!!

    Expecting twin boys!!!!! Pregnancy Ticker
  • Im sorry ((hugs)), it's just so unfair, IF sucks!!!
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  • I'm so sorry.  It sucks, plain and simple.  These are the things that are hardest for me -- you want to be happy for others, but it just hurts.  Then you feel guilty for not being happy.  I know it's normal, but it still stinks!

    <<HUGS>>

    IVF #3 = Feb 2012
    beta#1 3/21 (14dp3dt)=413, beta#2 3/23 (16dp3dt)=785, u/s 4/11
    EDD 11/25/12
    **SAIFW** Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Thanks again to everyone for all of the support! And...

    imageFaith722:

    I'm so sorry.  It sucks, plain and simple.  These are the things that are hardest for me -- you want to be happy for others, but it just hurts.  Then you feel guilty for not being happy.  I know it's normal, but it still stinks!

    <<HUGS>>

    Exactly. But my cry did me well. I'm okay again, for now.

    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

    Phillipians 4:6,7

  • Super hugs to you!! Ugh, I would of thrown my phone!! You will have your turn soon!!!!!!
    SAIF/PAIF is ALWAYS welcome to respond to my posts!
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    TTC since 12/06, PCOS w/ Endo & MFI - 3 Laps - 3 IVF's - 1 FET - 1 ectopic - 1 c/p - gearing up for IVF#4

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  • ((hugs))  I'm so sorry.  News like that is always a punch in the gut.  I hope you can be reporting #19 soon!
    *P/SAIFW* TTC since 1/08 Clomid, 2 IUIs, 4 IVFs, FET 7 losses Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm so sorry. That is so hard. IF sucks!
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  • ::hugs::

    I am so sorry.

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • Sorry! (hugs)
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