I'm only five hours into my day and I am all out of tears. I feel like the worst person in the whole world. This might be long, but I'd appreciate your empathy if you're able to get through the post.
This morning it was a little bit icy on the roads, I commute an hour along some rural roads, so I was taking it easy. And THEN, I see two raccoons on the road ahead of me. There's someone behind me, but far enough behind me that I can slow down (but not stop), and I totally smoked the one little guy. I felt him tumble under the car and the whole bit. I felt instantly sick to my stomach so I pulled over. The other car behind me swerved around the 'coons and then passed me. I decided to turn around, because an optimistic side of me hoped that the poor guy was still alive, but no luck. His/her friend/mate was there, patting him, trying to get him to get up. I burst into tears. I felt HORRIBLE. I had to roll down the window and clap my hands to scare the other little guy off the road.
I cried ALL the way to work, like ugly sobs, for an hour. Then once I got here I cried some more. What if that was that little racoon's only friend in the whole wide world? I killed his BFF. He just wanted to stay with his friend and I shooed him away. *wails*
Obviously I know I did the right thing, you're not supposed to swerve, and I was trying to keep myself and other drivers safe, but how am I not supposed to be devestated? All I can think about is that sad little '*** trying to wake his friend up.
Ok - sorry. If you made it this far, you're brave and a sucker for punishment. I'm a mess!
Re: Terrible, no good, very bad day
((HUGS))
I'm an animal person, and I would feel the same way. I hit a cat once on my way to work (my very first job). My poor boss had to calm me down because I came in bawling.
I hope you day gets better from here!
I would be a huge mess too! Even though it was the right thing to do to keep yourself and the other driver safe, it doesn't mean it makes it easy to hit the poor guy.
If it makes you feel better, over the summer I accidently killed a salamander with the weed whacker and DH came home to me sitting on the porch crying that I was a murderer.
OMG I am so sorry!!!! I would be sobbing as well, I feel terrible that your day started out this way
For your own sake, I recommend NOT turning to look next time. This is the exact same reason I MUST change the channel when all those heartbreaking ASPCA commercials come on... I do not have the emotional strength to watch without my heart tearing apart.
((HUGS)) hoping your day gets better.
Oh My Gosh!!! I am so sorry. I live in the country and I so the same thing. I stop for critters and I get really tore up when I do hit one by accident. I must admit I have never stopped and the fact that the other one was still there did bring an extra tear to my eye.
Sorry and I hope you day gets better.
Ah you poor darling! I would be devastated too!
<<<<HUGS>>>>
I won't lie, this kind of made me giggle. It's not a mammal - so I have less of a connection to them (and also b/c it wasn't me). It wasn't hitting him that's making me such a mess, it's the little guy that was left behind, trying to help him. *sniffle*
I had a similar situation once. I was driving along a quiet road and I saw a deer laying on the side of the road. He had obviously been hit, and was trying to get up and walk away and had worked his way into the middle of the road. I turned my car around and started flashing my highbeams as drivers approached to slow them down so he wouldn't get hit again. Hindsight makes me thing that probably would've been the best thing for him...
I stayed there until the emergency people came to get him. It was the most awful thing I have ever seen in my whole life.
When I think about it now, I still feel very sad. You did what you could - feel better!
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Oh sad! I know how you feel! I ran over a baby turtle a few weeks ago, and I felt so bad...but I couldn't swere either....
Hope you feel a bit better now...
Oh, no! I would feel terrible too, but there wasn't anything you could do
Hope your day gets better!
That is really sad. You're right though, it would have been dangerous for you to swerve or halt to a quick stop.
I'm sure the other little raccoon will find some more friends. I hope your day gets better
ETA: Just noticed your SN, where in the GTA are you from? I grew up in Bowmanville and fully understand the rural drive.
Just moved from KW area to Acton in the spring. The rural area has it's perks... being a racoon assassin, not one of them.