Why are those of us with low supply so hard on ourselves - or is it just me?
I just have to vent because it is so frustrating not being able to produce enough BM for my LO. I can?t tell you how much money I have spent trying to find the one thing that will boost my supply. From herbs, to tinctures, to herbal teas and even Domperidone that just are not helping but I keep taking them anyway.
I thought that I had that one moment this morning when I thought that finally, everything that I?m doing is working. LO finally slept more than 4 hours last night - she made it to 6 hours. I woke up so engorged it hurt. She nursed and I was go happy that she was satisfied and didn?t need a bottle of formula afterwards. However, lo and behold, my pumping amount at work decreased during all pumping times by ? and ounce (when you?re only pumping a total of 2 ounces, ? an ounce is a lot). Now I?m worried that if she is in fact sleeping through the night that by her doing so will really hurt my supply and I will have to set my alarm for 3 am and pump in order to keep what supply I have going.
I know that I shouldn?t feel like a failure - the same thing happened with my first DD 12 years ago and I only pumped until she was 3 months and was supplemented with formula throughout infancy and turned out ok, so why is it such a hard thing to deal with that I can?t BF this one. I know she will turn out ok if she gets only 2 ounces at a time from me. Maybe it is the thought that LO may be the last baby I have (fianc? is 40 and I?m 36 and we already have a DD from a previous marriage and now LO make 3 kids in the house). Maybe it is because I?ve heard that the more kids you have the more easier it is to BF and you would have ample supply, but if we don?t have another LO then I won?t know if that is true or not.
Sorry to vent but I'm feeling a little down.
Re: For those with low supply
I feel for you hon. Do not let yourself feel guilty. I am where you are -- only two ounces at a time, and I am coming to grips with the idea taht whatever I can give her is awesome and not to beat myself up over it, and instead be thankful that I live in a world where my baby does not have to starve because my body can't accomodate her.
Breastfeeding is better, but breastfeeding DOESN'T make you a better mother. This is my new mantra.
THIS!!! I think the reason we freak about it is b/c it is something we feel our bodies should be able to do. Thank God for formula, I cannot imagine how many babies in the past have starved due to a mother with low supply.
I nurse part time and have always had a lower supply. I get 6oz first thing in the morning and 4 oz regularly. This might sound like a lot to some but for a 3 month old it isn't enough and I have to supplement. I took everything I could to boost it, and power pumping is the best but nearly impossible with 2 other kids, a small business, and household to run. I obsessed about it for weeks and my poor sitter listened to my rants about my disfunctional boobies! (God bless her!) I nurse every other feeding and once I resigned to the fact that I HAD to supplement I relaxed alot. And I like the fact I have my boobs to myself for a while : )
Give your baby what you can, some milk is better than none! Good luck and keep trying, and if your baby has to have formula that is OKAY!!!
After all a baby's gotta eat!
And as for Trisha, your LO is only 2 weeks, you have a little while till your milk will really come in. Pumping a drip or two happened to me till 4 weeks, so keep your chin up!
I can't offer a solution because nothing helped me. I would get ridiculous happy to pump 2 ounces in 5!! sessions - COMBINED! But even with my low supply, DD still nurses at bedtime. Just relax and enjoy the nursing, I really think it is less about the milk and more about the time that matters. DD had to have some formula and I hated that, but it is what she needed and she still got everything i could give her.
I wouldn't bother setting the alarm for 3am. Your supply really is what it is. it will take a few days, but it will regulate so that you have all your milk while she is awake.
hang in there!
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I get where you are coming from girl. What I make in 4 days, one kid eats in less than 24 hours. I was so exhausted that I stopped after 3 1/2 weeks of EP. The dr's and I already knew I would probably not make a whole lot because of my history, but it still just really....pissed me off. lol I do give myself credit for lasting as long as I did. My boys got it when they needed it the most. I just wish I could've gotten a better suply because I KNOW I would last if I was producing more. It's just so frustrating. I was really hard on myself while I was pumping, but now that I've stopped, I give myself credit.
It's just so hard. But you definately shouldn't feel like a failure, because you are not
I could have written this post. I've had to supplement most days with formula. If I do everything precisely right -- water consumption, tea, herbs, ?-- I maybe get 3 oz every 3 hours. Oh how I searched for that magic pill or herb that would get us off formula, but it never happened.?
Low supply, at least for me, was a very emotional issue. I think I teetered on the border of PPD over it. Be gentle with yourself. You are grieving a loss. You hoped for an exclusive breastfeeding relationship, but that didn't happen.
??But I think you are doing an AMAZING think for your daughter. Think how many women would have just given up. (which is absolutely fine to do. Breastmilk may be the best food, but I firmly believe its not always the best choice, particularly if its making you crazy)
?You've worked very hard. You should be proud.?
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