I didn't have PPD after Peyton but I did devlop some harsh (undiagnosed) PPA. It's creeping back on me, and it's not so much directed at the new baby, but Peyton, again.
I just keep thinking what if she dies, and what if this and what if that, and of course the super creepy visuals pop in my head where everything plays out. I'm having a hard time turning them off.
I don't want to medicate, especially during pregnancy so I'm thinking of seeing a therapist to get to the bottom of it, who fing knows.
Re: The Anxiety is Horrible!