GNO tonight, yay! There were a bunch of us, 2 of which are pregnant, all of which are moms so we were naturally talking about babies and pregnancy. I was totally fine with talking to my 2 friends and listening to everyone ask and hear about their pregnancies.
But then one of the girls started talking about her sister being pregnant and her due date is 3 days after mine should have been. And her SIL is pregnant and due a week before I was. And then another friend pipes in that her baby was born right in that time too. I lost it.
I quickly interupted and blurted out "can we please stop talking about pregnancy?" But it was too late. I lost it. The tears were flowing. I tried to get to the bathroom first but I had to walk through the dining room bawling.
And then I let myself have about 5 minutes to cry and it felt good to cry again. And then I pulled myself together and went back and enjoyed the rest of our dinner and 2 glasses of really good wine. (after quickly explaining that I DO want to talk about my friends pregnancies, but those due dates were just too close to mine, and I don't want them to walk on eggshelves or watch what they say around me).
Re: My girls night dinner experience
When I was pregnant with DD, none of my friends were pregnant. Now, I have at least 6 pregnant friends. had to block one of FB because she kept bitching about how much it sucks to be pregnant.
I'm supposed to see a friend's newborn today. I'm hoping I can do it without flipping the eff out. My friend didn't know I was pregnant, and I haven't told her about my loss; I didn't think it was proper to talk to her about it while she was pregnant.
It is hard. I'm sorry. I hope your friends are supportive. We're here for you, too.