I had my first child in January she is 10 months now but for the past couple months I've felt overwhelmed with everything: daycare, her well being, guilt that I can't stay home with her and stress from work. My daughter is perfectly healthy but I worry too frequently about something going wrong.
I think of things going wrong now (a serious fall or injury) and down the road (autism, cancer, kidnappings). I passed these things off as first time mom nervousness and the fact that I've always been a worrywart but now I feel as though they're affecting my inability to focus on work or trust my daycare, which she's been at since she was 4 months and has been a happy baby ever since.
As she's learned to pull herself up to stand I worry about her falling and having a serious injury at daycare that would require stitches. Or I worry if she's been getting enough activity or attention if she sucks her thumb more than I think is normal when she comes home.
I feel like these are irrational thoughts to have and sometimes it overwhelms me to the point where I feel the need to drive to her center to make sure she's OK. Then sometimes on Sunday night and Monday morning as the weekend ends I feel upset about returning to work and not getting to be with her to the extent where I don't play with her as much and let my husband do most the caring for her and I can't find the enthusiasm or energy to do tasks or have fun.
I love motherhood, and I love my daughter more than anything but sometimes I feel I can't enjoy my daughter because I simply worry about everything. But I feel confused as to whether this would be PPD when my daughter is now 10 months?