Infertility

Always blindsides me..

Today was an amazing day. I was here with the children at work until closing and all was going well until

" Did you hear that "Sally" is pregnant?!" 

 I always try to save face and smile. I think this time I sucked at it. The person who told me semi knows of my troubles but doesnt know the extent. 

I am happy for the person who is pregnant, but hoped it would be me who was next.

So much for a good ending to the day =( 

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Re: Always blindsides me..

  • It sucks, huh?  I am getting really bad at faking happiness...I hope your day is better the whole way through tomorrow!!!
    Stopped BCPs December 2008 TTC since June 2009 6 unsuccessful Clomid cycles Dx Annovulatory due to PCOS January 2010 DH-perfect 4 unsuccessful IUIs Began Lupron July 7 for first IVF IVF cancelled; overstimulation and coasting lead to huge drop in E2 New testing with an Endocrinologist...perhaps a new diagnosis... So, not PCOS but Hashimoto's Thyroiditis November 2010 After a looong break, started seeing a new RE. Gearing up for IVF 1.2. Beta 1=197!! BabyFruit Ticker image
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  • FU IF!  Sad

    FWIW, I had one of those at work yesterday...and came home and poured a VERY large glass of wine. 

    TTC since Sept 08
    DX: Unexplained; DH: 4% morph / Me: no issues found
    4 failed IUIs -a potpourri of clomid, bravelle, menopur
    IVF #1 March 2011 - BFP / Missed m/c 8w1d
    IVF #2 January 2012 - BFN
    FET #1 - BFP!
    Expecting a Christmas Miracle!
  • I really wish I could fake it better, But then I also think should I have to fake it? It is okay for me to feel the way I feel as long as Im not hurting anyone or making anyone else feel bad. 
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  • I wish i had some wine. Instead I will be snuggling with DW and eating Chinese Food!
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  • I'm so sorry.  Hopefully it will be your turn soon.
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  • I definitely agree with PP about faking happiness. Unfortunately, it's a talent I'm slowly perfecting.

    TTC 7+ years - 3 failed IUI's; not going the IVF route; stopped treatment December 2013.

    Became licensed for Foster Care: March 2011
    Adoption Finalized: December 2013


    LISTEN TO THE MUSN'TS CHILD, LISTEN TO THE DON'TS.
    LISTEN TO THE SHOULDN'TS, THE IMPOSSIBLES, THE WONT'S.
    LISTEN TO THE NEVER HAVES, THEN LISTEN CLOSE TO ME.
    ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN, CHILD, ANYTHING CAN BE.
    -Shel Silverstein



  • I'm sorry you day ended crummy.  But it sounds like you're having a nice night with DW!

    IF sucks!

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  • Big hugs!
    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

    Phillipians 4:6,7

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