My apologies....

Nathan&Christina · November 2010

I'm new to the whole posting thing. I have been reading and lurking for a while on a few boards and just jumped in, rather than doing the polite thing....and introducing myself. I hope you sweet ladies can accept my brain fart this morning by commenting before the intro came.

Let's see where to begin about me.....Well, I'm 27 live in Baltimore, MD with my SO, Nathan, and our 2 dogs, Molly (boxer/pit mix) & Max (pug). We are in the process of selling our current home (townhouse) and upgrading to a single family home. Trying to relocate out of the city limits. We both want something with a little land......blah, blah, blah.....enough about that....

I'm here b/c I'm bitter at times, not always but sometimes. I see so many lack of common sense people around me constantly reproducing while Nathan and I, 2 very capable, loving, grounded, stable people are unable to concieve naturally thus far. So far, we have been trying for quite some time with out the BFP. But I believe things happen when they are suppose to. (and I know you arent suppose to start a sentence with But.....BUT IM aggravated and hurt. I thought losing my mother (also, my best friend) to suicide in April of 2008 would be one of the hardest and trying ordeals of my life but a little over a year later in April 2009, I lost my first baby at 24 weeks due to unknown reasons. His name was to be Caleb and I was suppose to be his mommy. I have not be able to concieve since.

Some days are harder than others. With anyone whom has ever gone thru a loss of a baby knows that time heals all wounds but the emptiness never goes away. I'm not sure if that changes when you get pregnant again or not....but as much as I am looking forward to becoming pregnant again, it scares the crap out of me. Esp, when I did everything right the first time around....I want to be able to enjoy my next pregnancy, not be all paranoid all of the time.

Ok, lol, I didn't even know how to begin on introducing myself in a post and I apologize for my ramble....I hope this is some of the info you were looking from me...

Hope everyone has a good Wednesday.

Serendipitie · November 2010

I am so sorry for both your losses.

Nathan&Christina · November 2010

Serendipitie:
I am so sorry for both your losses.

Everyone goes thru some sort of loss in their life and I just have to believe that it has happened for a reason, maybe for me to help someone in the future, I dont know but Thank you for taking the time to say something....

May I respond to posts now.....? Wink

yogisunam · November 2010

Welcome.

And I am very sorry for your losses. You sound like a very strong person.

gidge · November 2010

Welcome. I'm sorry for your losses.

staycee · November 2010

welcome.

Sorry to hear of the loss of ones that were very dear to you. That is very sad.

and yes, jump on in and play with us!

Serendipitie · November 2010

You could respond to posts before, we just tend to want a little background on someone to help us determine if you're a douche.

As a whole, we warm up to newcomers slowly, so don't be offended if your posts lack a bunch of responses. Oh, and this place has been dead too which also contributes to the lack of responses.