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Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
New here. We lost our twin boys.
Callan George was born still yesterday at 7:05am.
Bennett Charles was born yesterday at 7:3am and passed at 8:05am.
They were beautiful, perfect really. Just too little.
I don't even know what else to write.
Contractions started back up in earnest on Friday. I went to my OB and was 1 cm dilated (changed from 3.8 cm long on Tuesday). She sent me straight to the hospital where I was prepped for flight for life. I was flown down to University of Colorado Hospital in Denver. DH wasn't allowed in the helicopter so he had to drive and got stuck in traffic. I was at the hospital by 5pm and he was there around 7pm. My MFM was there. They did everything they could to stop labor.
By 3pm Saturday I was 7 cm dilated and we knew what was inevitable. We called family and friends and then turned our phones off. By 6pm I had the epi and wasn't in pain anymore. DH and I snuggled and spent quiet time together feeling the babies move inside me and praying.
By 9pm I was fully dilated. We were told to expect the delivery to move very quickly and to be easy, physically. Things went south very quickly. They broke Cal's water and had me push and he got stuck in the birth canal. He was stuck until 7am. The docs couldn't get him out. I pushed and pushed and he just couldn't budge. The MFM was finally able to deliver him at 7:05am. Ben came shortly after.
They placed Ben on my chest and we got to spend time with him while he was alive. He moved his legs and fingers and opened and closed his mouth. It was amazing.
We got to spend most
of the morning with them and just DH and I. Our parents all arrived
around noon. Our siblings will all be here shortly. The babies have been
with us the whole time. They have gotten to meet family and friends.
They know how much they are loved. Now I lay me down to sleep was here
yesterday to take professional pictures.
We should be discharged later today. I don't know how to leave them or how to go out into world.
We are devastated.TTC with severe MFI since 9/08
IVF w/ ICSI #1 May/June 2010= BFP twins
Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
FET #1 April 2011= BFN
FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138
Living After Losing
Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
FET #1 April 2011= BFN
FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138
Living After Losing
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Re: New here. We lost our twin boys.
Ditto. I'm am so sorry. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. Where are you living that you got FFL'ed to Denver? I live in Wyoming just over the border and my dd was sent to Children's Hospital in Denver when I had her because she was 8 weeks early.
I'm so sorry! (((HUGS)))
Missed M/C 11/5/2010 @ 5 weeks, 3 days* D&C 12/3/2010 at 9 weeks, 3 days
I am so sorry for your losses.
::hugs::
This is awful. Sometimes things that happen to us seem too much for one person and I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. My T&P are with you.
Oh my goodness. I am so very, very sorry.
BFP#1 - 8/27/10 - D&C 10/27/10 @ 13 weeks to Trisomy 18
Missing our Angel Baby Gabriel
BFP#2 - 3/18/11 - CP 3/19/11 BFP#3 - 4/27/11 - Due 1/9/12
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful sons Callan and Bennett. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
{{Hugs}}
My heart breaks for you and your family. Please take comfort in knowing there are many T&P being said for you, your family and your sons.
We had our second m/c in 8 months a few months ago and we felt like our world was coming to an end, once again. There are no words to comfort you right now, there is nothing we can say to let you know that things will feel better again one day. Surround yourself with family and friends, be alone when you need to be too, do what is right for you at the time, people will understand if one day all you want to do is talk and the next you want to be in bed all day. One thing I hope you do is talk to your partner, keep the line open, I drove myself crazy sometimes keeping things to myself, just to talk it out with my husband and realise I wasn't crazy! Take care of each other, put one foot in front of the other and one day soon you will both be running again. My thoughts are with you and I hope the sun shines again soon.
We love and miss you Jillian (18w) and Peanut (6w). Welcome to our TAC miracle Jacob!
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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Because of the great "Snow"vember of 2015, my medicated cycle was cancelled. However, we were blessed with our little rainbow baby due on 8/14/15! Baby J had other plans and decided to make his grand ole entrance on 7/4/2015!
Surprise! Our little girl entered this world on 12/8/2016 after her eviction notice was long past due. Our little turkey baby turned into a snow baby!
I am so, so sorry. I saw the photos of your boys on another board and they are beautiful. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
I am reminded of this poem I found online-
"To My Angel"
God gave me a high honor
That many never know;
For just on certain people
This honor is bestowed.
I'm a mother of an angel
That lives with God above;
God's told you all about me,
So you know how much you're loved.
I knew that you were special
Even from the very start;
A priceless little cherub-
Always part of Mommy's heart.
But Jesus saw an angel
As He looked down below;
He made me an angel's mommy
When He gave you your halo.
And though I'll miss you so
You're safe with Him forever,
And I'm looking forward to the day
When we'll spread our wings together.
by: Carisa Gourley