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My update from last night, and its not good
Unless some big fat miracle rolls in regarding my blood work, my cycle is over. I have a large follie that doesn't seem to be surpressed, due to the fact that I am an idiot and can't read/comprehend the directions to my protocol. There are three or four other follies in the 10-12 range, but its a lost cause.
DH and I went out to breakfast after the appointment, and he tells me he wants to try another cycle. I on the other hand am so OVER this IF Sh*t. Deep down I knew this before we even started this cycle. I wonder if my subconscious sabotaged it for me? Better this than another 0% fert rate, or another BFN, right? In some ways it is.
I'm not devastated, upset, sad, or even angry at myself about this right now. I'm just numb. It just shouldn't be this hard for anyone.
Thanks for all your support, especially last night. I really do appreciate it, and I am very sorry for putting out such a negative vibe on the board today.
TTC Child #1 Sept '08, Dx: Unexplained, DOR
2 IUI's = BFN, m/c, IVF 1 = 0 embies to put back, IVF 2 = BFN, IVF 3 = cancelled, IVF 4 = BFP with 1 embie. Our son came into our life on 9/28/11. We are in love!
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Re: My update from last night, and its not good
I am so sorry.
No one should ever have to go thru what we are going thru. Ever.
I will keep you in my thoughts!
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
i'm so sorry
((HUGS))
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
(((hugs))) I am so sorry.
Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
Forever our's October 17th 2012
Sh!t.
I just replied to your other post saying I hope they can make some adjustments. I am nearing the end of my rope as well so I get how you are feeling. It's such a hassle. I mean, this protocol is really confusing. You all but have to stand on your head and click your heels 3 times. You are right...it should NOT be this hard on anyone and I am so sorry you are going through this.
We are here for you...all you have to do is tell us when you need us. ((hugs))
Boo IF! So sorry.
I'm so sorry
((hugs))
I'm so so sorry. It's unfair and IF sucks a$$.
History of IF and 2.5 years TTC. The day we were to start our first IUI we received a call that changed our lives forever and 10 month old Olivia joined our family. Shortly thereafter we got a surprise BFP and baby 2 is due July 5, 2012
5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first
Thankful for every day
I missed your original post but I wanted to say I'm so sorry you're going through any of this. It is completely unfair and I will never even begin to understand it.
(((hugs)))
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
I am so so sorry to hear this news. And you should not one bit feel bad for posting this, it is in no way putting a dark cloud over the board.
I hope that you and you husband can make a decision to move forward that you are both happy with and that you take it easy over the next few days.
The biggest bear hugs to you.
I'm so sorry... it really is unfair.
(((hugs)))
TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
Clomid/Femara no "O"
IVF #1 BFN
FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
my blog
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
I'm so sorry.
Big ((HUGS))
Blythe Elizabeth is here March 27,2012
oh no, i'm so sorry to hear that. that f*ing sucks. IF is so unfair. you're right, it shouldn't be this hard for anyone.
no need to apologize for anything. we are here for you. ((HUGS))
I am so sorry. I was really hoping that you would have gotten better news today.
(((super big hugs)))
Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
E & C Born 10/19/2012
/hugs
I'm so sorry. maybe you might want to take a short break and then see how you feel? Maybe after a break you will better be able to decide if you want to do more treatments or not.
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
TTC since 2007
6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
Crap. I am so sorry. IF sucks.
((hugs))
My blog: Making Me Mom
Thank you so much for the support! When I got home to read all of this it made me feel so much better. I really appreciate it!
IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer
Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
**P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**