(I'm being a PW until my coworkers get in)
I had my pre-op and the RE said I'll probably have to have a scheduled c-section after this because I'll be at higher risk for uterine rupture. I feel like we've made so many consessions already I am upset that there is one more thing that is going to be different from what I always imaged and one more "normal" experience it seems like I'm getting cheated out of.
I had totally planned on trying to find a hospital where I could labor in water, without meds, and I wanted to try the hypnobirthing classes. I know that it isn't something you can really plan for - but I was hoping for the chance.
In reality, I know it's small potatos but I am having a hard time with it. I'm pissed at myself too because if I'd been more willing to use ds 6 or 9 months ago, I may have gotten pregnant before the fibroid developed and it wouldn't have been an issue.
I want something to happen where I get to feel normal and have stuff in common with my friends again. I'm tired of feeling left out.
Re: Seriously bummed
((HUGS))
I know how it feels for your body to let you down and to be cheated out of "normalness". To get what everyone else had so easily. It sucks.
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I agree with Mainer - you never could have predicted this. And who knows - the fibroids could have developed while you were pregnant and caused an issue then as well. I know it did for my SIL.
I'm sorry things have been so sucky lately - can you do something just for you?
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ditto. Sorry Gidge. you are so overdue for good news
The "good" news is if you have a c-section you'll have lots in common with people.
I so understand your thoughts though. I still struggle with the birth I ended up with after all my planning for med-free delivery. I'm grateful for a healthy baby but it is hard. There are so many emotions wrapped up in IF and then once you get pg. Don't feel bad for that.
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Thanks. I'm glad I'm not crazy.
When I talked to DH about it he seemed pretty confused about why I cared. To him this doesn't really rank very high on the list of things that "shouldn't have to be this way" but are.
Sulfa - That was a pretty one sided documentary but I thought it was pretty interesting. I know nothing about the birthing process is guarenteed but I still had hopes that I'd get to try things my way.