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Seriously bummed

(I'm being a PW until my coworkers get in)

I had my pre-op and the RE said I'll probably have to have a scheduled c-section after this because I'll be at higher risk for uterine rupture.  I feel like we've made so many consessions already I am upset that there is one more thing that is going to be different from what I always imaged and one more "normal" experience it seems like I'm getting cheated out of.

I had totally planned on trying to find a hospital where I could labor in water, without meds, and I wanted to try the hypnobirthing classes.  I know that it isn't something you can really plan for - but I was hoping for the chance.

In reality, I know it's small potatos but I am having a hard time with it.  I'm pissed at myself too because if I'd been more willing to use ds 6 or 9 months ago, I may have gotten pregnant before the fibroid developed and it wouldn't have been an issue.

I want something to happen where I get to feel normal and have stuff in common with my friends again.  I'm tired of feeling left out.

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Re: Seriously bummed

  • ((HUGS))

    I know how it feels for your body to let you down and to be cheated out of "normalness".  To get what everyone else had so easily.  It sucks.

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  • (((hugs)))  IF stuff ruins so much
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  • ((BIG HUGS))  I know exactly what you mean.  Don't beat yourself up about the ds issue though.  That is a hard enough thing to come to a decision about.  You wouldn't want to rush it. 
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  • I'm so sorry. Try not to beat yourself up about your past decisions - you didn't have a crystal ball and made the best decision for you given the information you had at the time. (((HUGS)))
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  • (((hugs)))  Sorry you won't be able to have the birth experience that you wanted. 
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    I'm so sorry. Try not to beat yourself up about your past decisions - you didn't have a crystal ball and made the best decision for you given the information you had at the time. (((HUGS)))

    I agree with Mainer - you never could have predicted this.  And who knows - the fibroids could have developed while you were pregnant and caused an issue then as well.  I know it did for my SIL. 

    I'm sorry things have been so sucky lately - can you do something just for you?

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    (((hugs)))  IF stuff ruins so much

     ditto. Sorry Gidge. you are so overdue for good news


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  • The "good" news is if you have a c-section you'll have lots in common with people. ;) 

     I so understand your thoughts though. I still struggle with the birth I ended up with after all my planning for med-free delivery. I'm grateful for a healthy baby but it is hard. There are so many emotions wrapped up in IF and then once you get pg. Don't feel bad for that. 

  • (((HUGS))) IF can suck it!
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  • I totally get what you're saying. It does royally suck when you get faced with obstacles every step of the way, and it's all caused by IF. (((HUGS)))) You're not alone xoxoxo
  • ((hugs)) I'm so sorry gidge. This has been a craptastic few months for you.
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  • I'm sorry :(   IF sure does suck! Like PP said you had no way of knowing what would happen. ((HUGS))
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  • That was really hard for me to accept too (and it was even harder for Mr. Sulfa, believe it or not!) *hugs* It sucks.  I know that The Business of Being Born was pretty one-sided but I totally cried all the way through it knowing that would never be me!
  • Thanks.  I'm glad I'm not crazy.

    When I talked to DH about it he seemed pretty confused about why I cared.  To him this doesn't really rank very high on the list of things that "shouldn't have to be this way" but are.

    Sulfa - That was a pretty one sided documentary but I thought it was pretty interesting.  I know nothing about the birthing process is guarenteed but I still had hopes that I'd get to try things my way.

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  • Big Hugs to you.
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