Official Introduction
Hi, my name is Barbara and I've been ttcal for 6+ months.
DH and I have been together for 3 years, married for 1, but have known each other since I was 5. We stopped TTA in July 2009, figuring that if we were lucky enough for me to be a FH I would not be showing by our wedding in September 2009.
When I was 16 I had my period for 6 months straight, my OBGYN at the time put me on birth control and told me that I'd never be able to have kids. I've had to have the "we might not be able to conceive naturally conversation with three men that I was serious about and loved, two couldn't handle it and left, the third I married.)
I have NEVER had a regular period when not on BC. I go months (sometimes over a year) without any bleeding, and then will bleed for months on end. Anyway, when I went off BC in January 2009 my cycle went back to being all crazy. My doctor had already told me that I had PCOS and this was confirmed by U/S in October 2009. My doctor and I agreed that we would begin fertility treatment in June 2010.
Then in March 2010 on St. Patrick's day I apparently ovulated, and in April 2010 I got a "surprise" BFP. A surprise because I was told that getting a BFP without a lot of assistance was unlikely to occur. So anyway, because I was in happy, naive-land, I told a lot of people, our friends, family, my boss. But all that time I was spotting. For that reason I got to see our baby a couple of times on u/s. She had a perfectly healthy heartbeat and was measuring right on schedule.
On the evening of May 5, 2010 into May 6, 2010, I lost our baby.
Since then I have possibly ovulated once (on September 28) but that did not turn into a baby (probably because of the progesterone). Anyway. So now I should be 33 weeks but instead nothing. I'm tired of trying (even though I know that most of you ladies have been trying for so much longer that my paltry little bit of time seems whiny and insignificant), I'm tired of people looking at my stomach and wondering if I'm pregnant again. I'm tired of constantly feeling like I'm waiting for something and putting my entire life on hold.
I am turning 30 in June. I have a fertility consult with my OBGYN on November 23. I pee in a cup three times a day and use wonderfo opk's to test to see if I'm ovulating. I've been doing that every single day since July. I'm tired, I'm bitter.
That is me.
Re: Official Introduction
BFP #1: 07/10/2009, Missed m/c, D&C 08/12/2009
BFP #2: 01/31/2010, Identical Twins died in utero due to TTTS, D&E 05/19/2010
BFP #3: 09/16/2010, natural m/c 9/21/2010
PCOS & Bocornuate Uterus Dx 1.4.2011
BFP #4: 01/11/2011
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11
* PG #1 2/26/09: mm/c 4/14/09 at 10w4d | PG #2 8/5/09: mm/c 9/29/09 at 11w3d (boy) *
* CP's 4/14/10, 9/1/10, 4/19/11, 5/24/11, 10/14/13, 11/16/13 *
* Ectopic 1/17/14 - nothing on u/s at 6w4d *
* PG #7 BFP 12/21/11 - DD born 8/31/12 *
* DH Dx'd with balanced translocation in 2011 *
I've thought about going to an RE, and because I'm by my nature a pre-planner, I have even found a local one that I like. Unfortunately my insurance will not cover an RE, or any fertility treatment, whereas non-fertility treatment is covered by my insurance at my OBGYN. She is willing to label things as non-fertility treatment for our insurance, which is why I'm going to stay with her for at least a little while. I'm hoping that we will begin clomid and possibly metaformin and that together I will begin to ovulate.
In my mind I am willing to give it six months, after that I will go to an RE regardless of insurance.
Thank you for all the warm welcomes.