In that case...
VeilSdeGTO
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I would like to formally introduce myself. I'm 32 (33 in a week) and DH is 40.
I've had three losses now with DH, and if I am absolutely heart-wrenchingly honest, it is actually my 5th loss. The first two were in my early twenties, one early loss and one 2nd tri loss. DH does not know about the first two and only my ex-bf's family know about the first late loss.
I am not a "lets try something new this cycle to see if it works" kind of girl. At this point, it would just be another thing to piss me off if it didn't work. I've been angry and felt like damaged goods for a long time. I live my life in limbo, waiting to O, waiting for AF, waiting to O, waiting for AF.
I secretly (or not so secretly) hate (and sometimes wish m/c) on people who are so unfit to be parents or have no desire to love their children with all of their being. I am bitter, I'm angry, I'm jaded, and I just don't give a f*ck about all the advice to relax, to try this, and try that.
I need a place to b*tch.
My Life
BFP 7.7.09 - CVS 9.10.09 (Girl) - 9.24.09 Severe Fatal Malformation - D&E 10.7.09 @ 17wks
BFP 6.1.10 - 6.10.10 Ectopic M/C @ 5wks
BFP 10.26.10 - 10.29.10 CP
BFP 1.30.11 - CVS 3.28.11 (Girl) - EDD 10.11.11 - Born 10.6.11
BFP 12.18.12 - 12.20.12 CP
BFP 3.18.13 - CVS 5.21.13 (Girl) - EDD 12.2.13 - Born 11.24.13
BFP 6.10.14 - CVS 7.2.14 (Girl) - EDD 1.12.15 - Born sleeping 8.6.14 @ 17w5d
Re: In that case...
((hugs))
I wanted to say I am so sad that you are back. I was so happy for you (and I mean that, I am not just being nice). I understand your feelings and I too hate and wish m/c sometimes on my darkest days. I am horrified to admit that but this process takes it toll. I feel a lot safer over here, I hope you do too.
DD #1 born 9/07 ** DD #2 born 7/11 ** Operation Take Back My Body has begun 10/11
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I'm so, so sorry for all of your losses.
The ladies here are a wonderful source of strength & comfort. I hope you will find that here.
* PG #1 2/26/09: mm/c 4/14/09 at 10w4d | PG #2 8/5/09: mm/c 9/29/09 at 11w3d (boy) *
* CP's 4/14/10, 9/1/10, 4/19/11, 5/24/11, 10/14/13, 11/16/13 *
* Ectopic 1/17/14 - nothing on u/s at 6w4d *
* PG #7 BFP 12/21/11 - DD born 8/31/12 *
* DH Dx'd with balanced translocation in 2011 *
BFP #1: 07/10/2009, Missed m/c, D&C 08/12/2009
BFP #2: 01/31/2010, Identical Twins died in utero due to TTTS, D&E 05/19/2010
BFP #3: 09/16/2010, natural m/c 9/21/2010
PCOS & Bocornuate Uterus Dx 1.4.2011
BFP #4: 01/11/2011
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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