The outpouring of love and support I've recieved in the mail over the past few days is truly unreal.
I have never in my life encountered a group of girls like you.
Off the bat, thank you to Normailed, Melissa (Melvic), Natalie(jp), April, and Sarah (Sarlah). Your words gave me (and continue to give me) strength when I seriously felt like banging my head against the steering wheel (ask Rose, Mari's drama is head-bang worthy).
Melissa (chickymel) - you treated me to a coffee and an oh-so-glutenous and dairy-lous double chocolate chunk brownie and a venti raspberry mocha (double shot) today. Alone. Like, no Mari, no Peter, no crying, no work. Alone. And it was hot and glorious.
Natalie(115) - the plaques you sent have already been hung directly next to the glider in Mari's room, this way, when she does go back to sleeping in her crib (I am determined) and I'm up 45 times a night, I can have some reinforcement. They are just beautiful.
And Rose, my rescuer. Thank you for giving me something to look forward to I am so happy I was able to get out of the house last night (especially after the 5pm cry/whine/drivemeinsane-fest) and I was happily a bit hungover today.
I've already told Esther and Rose, as of next week, I am officially going to therapy, haha. I know I need some help. Like, I need to learn how to cope with everything that's put in front of me. I honestly do all I can as a mom to tend to my child's needs and to try to keep her in good spirits, but I guess this is just how some of them come, ya know? I know Mari is way needier than the next, way whinier and way more prone to screaming than the next and I'm ok with it... She's been this way since the day she's born (ok, maybe since she was 3 weeks old), but I need to learn how not to pull my own hair out in the process of trying to help her (and get her and I to sleep, cause of course that would help). If nothing else, therapy will give me some alone-time to break away for a bit and it will force Peter to take care of her by himself.
I can't wait to feel positive once again.
Again, thank you... and a special thanks to Esther, who I know alerted you girls... Thank you for recognizing how tough things have been over here.
Re: I cannot thank you enough...
I hope that talking to a therapist helps you out. I don't know how you've held it together for this long, I would have had a nervous breakdown ages ago.
Tons of :HUGS:!
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Well said Dani!!! We are all here for you girl.....We love you very much!!!!
Oh my Cris...I'm just trying to get all caught up (work has been absolute hell for me, and I can't check in here anymore). You know we all love you. I'm glad you're starting to get some help from others around you and that you decided to get some doctor time.
Mari sounds a lot like my nephew...my sister was terrified of all things newborn for nearly 3 years after he was born. He didn't stop crying for 6 months, and it was unbelievably hard on her. She also made the decision to start therapy, and it definitely helped her. I hope you're able to find comfort and sanity.
HEART YOU!!!
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