I miss my hubby and I just don't feel like pretending I'm super strong today. His deployment doesn't start for a few months, but the 3 week out-of-state trainings are taking their toll on my hormones already. I am fine with being alone for an extended period of time, we were engaged and living together when before he joined and was gone for 6months of basic training and AIT, but I just can't help but get a little down and pouty now and then. If you don't want to listen to me whine, stop reading now. (You've been warned.)
I am soooo happy for all the ladies that get to have their amazing husbands with them every morning and every night. But that doesn't make it any easier to read their posts about all the sweet things their DH is doing and saying on an hourly basis. I just want my tummy kissed and caressed. And I want to be able to call him when I absolutely MUST have a deli sub and know that only a sigh and a few minutes are standing between me, my man and that delicious treat! I am planning on soaking up every second of the 4 days he will be home for in a couple weeks, but I still want him here with me now. I know it will be much harder to have him away when I'm worrying about his safety, too, but I try not to focus on that time until I have to. I have a great family who lives close by and friends who I know are here for me, and I know I will need to be strong for my hubs, myself and our LO. But none of that equals hugs and kisses and cuddle time. My pregnant self just wants to be pampered and doted on just for a little while.
Done pouting. Thanks for listening.
Re: Feeling like pouting just a little...
Thanks, ladies! I am really thankful for this board. It's so nice to be able to tell someone my feelings who actually knows what these times apart are like. My friends and family just say "it'll be okay" and then get quiet. I know they are trying to help, but sometimes I just want to be able to let it all out without feeling guilty myself for making them listen to me cry. I had an emotional hormone moment over skype with my mom yesterday when she told me she didn't want to come over to visit because my dad would be home from work soon and she "missed her husband". And I totally get that because my dad and husband work at the same place on the same schedule (hubby is reserves), so I know how much you can miss a man you still get to sleep in bed with every night if you don't see each other during the day, but like a third grader, I just want to scream "but I miss mine more!!" The tears would have lasted longer, but have you ever watched yourself cry on camera? Not pretty! lol
I know there are tougher times ahead. I'm definately NOT looking forward to giving birth without the hubs by my side, but I know he will be thinking of me and wishing he could be there as much I will, so I try not to bring that up too often to him. I am very happy to have this LO growing inside me, reminding me everyday of my wonderful husband. Does sort of change the plan I had for dancing my butt of at the bar with my friends when hubby was away, though! haha
Now it's nursery making and major scrapbooking to pass the time! WooWoo! Wild times at the pregnant lady's house!
Let it all out, girl! It happens with all of us sometimes. My favorite time to pout it out is when my LO goes to sleep for the night and I am just sitting on the couch by myself, thinking of how when DH is home, that's OUR time.
Try to keep your head up and thoughts positive and the best advice anyone ever gave me: Stay busy!