More Ramblings...

sdkrlm · October 2010

Thank you ALL for all of your support and encouragement. I am feeling better about things - not 100% but better.

I have come to the following definite conclusions:

- I feel better about having a RSC vs a VBAC. Many of my concerns regarding VBAC aren't scientific but they are my concerns. THere is about a 30% chance of needing an emergency c-section when attempting VBAC - even under the "perfect" conditions. The fact that my mom had all three of her babies LATE, my sister was induced at 41 1/2 weeks and I was overdue with NO progress towards labor at 40+ weeks, I worry about going into labor on my own - BEFORE my BP and swelling get out of control. I don't see it happening... IT COULD... For sure...but... I Don't feel it happening.

- I sort of feel like there are two very distinct sides - RSC vs VBAC. The Pro VBAC people tend to focus on all the potential "greatness" of it - and neglect to address the 30% risk factor in needing another c-section - or the 1% chance of uterine abrupture and think that the doctors are just trying to cover their asses when they dont perform VBACs, that somehow that they are all ridiculous for not wanting to take the risks. And then the RSC people that focus SOLELY on the risk and scary stuff of a VBAC and all the benefits of VBAC. I haven't found "MY" perfect article that addresses BOTH of the pros/cons of both sides. So I guess I continue to go with my gut and what I feel is right.

I did see the VBAC board -ANd I read all the posts (I don't comment) but I like to read why people feel so motivated to attempt VBAC. So far nothing has struck me as "voila! that's what I feel is the 'reason' " I usually silently address my concerns with "but...what about [fill in the blank]???"

SO... I'm getting there... I am now worried about deliberately taking Ryan at 39 weeks (38, 4 if you're going by my EDD).. I have a drs appt on Thursday that I plan on asking Dr. D. about any worries...and plus I think we're having another u/s. I think I will feel better knowing how big Ryan is measuring. And just hearing it flat out from a dr that I really do trust has mine and Ryan's best interest in mind.

And in the mean time... as my post earlier mentioned ... I am secretly freaking the youknowwhat out because I am SOOOOOOOOOO not ready to bring another baby home to my house right now. I have NOTHING ready for him. Oh.My.GAWD.

Thanks again girls

Erin&Gregg07 · October 2010

Aww, Bless your heart! I think you are doing exactly what is right for you and Ryan. I think that when you talk to your doctor you will feel better about your decision. The doctor is not going to do anything he feels would/could hurt you or Ryan! Your house will be in order when he arrives! He is a lucky little boy that you care so much already! If you need anything let me know. ((Hugs))

12106mrsmun · October 2010

I'm glad that you're feeling better about your decision. And WTF are you talking about not having anything ready, lol!? Crib--check cute nursery--check bassinet--check....you're golden! Quit being so hard on yourself, mkay?!

aubie96 · October 2010

12106mrsmun:
I'm glad that you're feeling better about your decision. And WTF are you talking about not having anything ready, lol!? Crib--check cute nursery--check bassinet--check....you're golden! Quit being so hard on yourself, mkay?!

I'm with Fran.

Just take a moment to breath, maybe go get a massage. Stressing or worrying about it over and over is not going to do you or Ryan any good.

We are all here for you and you can vent anytime.

Hugs!!!

crollin · October 2010

Wish we lived closer so I could come over and help you get everything ready!!!

soon2Bmrs.AGEE · October 2010

Glad you are feeling better about your decisions. I cannot believe you are so close! I am here to help you get ready with anything you need! But you know that...