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Stolen from 3-6-If you really knew me

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If you really knew me you would know I grew up in 5 different states and everytime I made friends it seemed like it was to move

I have a genetic disorder that I am scared the girls have, but since they show no signs, we haven't had them tested yet. I hate the wait and see game.  I pray every night they don't have it.

I don't drink because of my mother.

 

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  • I saw this on a bullying show on MTV I think where they mixed up the kids in a high school according to their cliques.  Nerds with punks with preps, etc. and they all had to tell each other something most people didn't know about them.  Interesting show...

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    If you really knew me, you would know that I knew my first marriage would end in divorce before we ever got married...and I still married him and had a child with him.


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  • if you really knew me

    you'd know that i am scared to death that my recently asd diagnosed ds who functions highly now will suddenly stop or regress.  and the kid i know and love will not be there.  i am searching for answers and scared.  i know i know there is a different board.

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  • If you really knew me, you'd know that it both melts and breaks my heart to see MH with our daughter.  She has owned him from the moment she was born, and I never anticipated how this would bring my own issues to the surface.  I have a wonderful stepfather who adopted me when I was 10, and he is fantastic - I can't stress that enough.  But it hurts my heart that we didn't have these moments MH has with Scarlett and it hurts me that my stupid sperm donor was such a douche.  I don't know how he ever let his kids go the way he did, and apparently, it still bothers me.
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    If you really knew me, you'd know that it both melts and breaks my heart to see MH with our daughter.  She has owned him from the moment she was born, and I never anticipated how this would bring my own issues to the surface.  I have a wonderful stepfather who adopted me when I was 10, and he is fantastic - I can't stress that enough.  But it hurts my heart that we didn't have these moments MH has with Scarlett and it hurts me that my stupid sperm donor was such a douche.  I don't know how he ever let his kids go the way he did, and apparently, it still bothers me.

    Aw, ((hugs)) my darlin

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    imageeclaires:
    If you really knew me, you'd know that it both melts and breaks my heart to see MH with our daughter.  She has owned him from the moment she was born, and I never anticipated how this would bring my own issues to the surface.  I have a wonderful stepfather who adopted me when I was 10, and he is fantastic - I can't stress that enough.  But it hurts my heart that we didn't have these moments MH has with Scarlett and it hurts me that my stupid sperm donor was such a douche.  I don't know how he ever let his kids go the way he did, and apparently, it still bothers me.

    Aw, ((hugs)) my darlin

    More ((( hugs))) 

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  • thanks, guys.  :)  It seriously caught be my surprise - I never expected to be emotional about this since I wasn't with Jackson even though MH is super involved/loving dad to him too - must be a daddy/daughter thing. 

    I will say I am very glad that I get to see this relationship unfold; it's really a precious thing to get to witness and I'm so happy my daughter has a fantastic father.

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  • If you really knew me, you'd know that I was scared to death of drinking much or often for fear of becoming an alcoholic like my father. 

    If you really knew me, you'd know that my life is in a complete state of upheaval right now and it's taking everything in me to smile and keep going on with the day to day since I have no idea what the next day will bring or how we'll get through it.

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    If you really knew me, you'd know that it both melts and breaks my heart to see MH with our daughter.  She has owned him from the moment she was born, and I never anticipated how this would bring my own issues to the surface.  I have a wonderful stepfather who adopted me when I was 10, and he is fantastic - I can't stress that enough.  But it hurts my heart that we didn't have these moments MH has with Scarlett and it hurts me that my stupid sperm donor was such a douche.  I don't know how he ever let his kids go the way he did, and apparently, it still bothers me.

    Lots of hugs, e. 

    It breaks my heart to see how much my MIL loves the girls and how much they love her, because I know they'll never get those moments with my mom (she passed away), so I kind of get it.

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  • I want to hug all of you.  But mainly just because I LOVE hugging!  Stick out tongue

    cny --- (((HUGS)))!  I can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling but I can gather from what I have seen of you here that you will take this in stride, you will do your very best for him!!!  He has a great momma --- which is leaps and bounds beyond where many other kids are!!!  ;)

    amanimals -- sounds like your daughter is lucky to have you in her corner!!!  I wish you both the best -- smiles are important.  But just remember, they have nothing to do with teeth!!!

    e -- it's an AMAZING to thing to see your child reap the benefits of your choices.  Sounds like you did a great job in picking a father for your children...enjoy that!  Relish in that!  Acknowledge the hurt that you feel -- and then be blessed that S gets that daddy/daughter relationship with her daddy! I will be forever grateful that I married a man that is SO involved with my children -- something my father, although physically present, didn't do to well!

  • Oh, and if you really knew me....

    you would know that....

     - I STILL seek the approval of my father.  And mother, at times.  And to hear my dad tell he is proud of me would mean just about the world to me.  And it breaks my heart, and effs with my head, that I could even WANT to hear those words from him.

     - I come across as one of the most confident people in the world, when really, most times, I'm just a shell of a person who can barely hold it together

    - I laugh at myself/put myself down as a way of defending myself. 

    Boy, THAT was therapeutic (sp?)!!!  :)

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    imageeclaires:
    If you really knew me, you'd know that it both melts and breaks my heart to see MH with our daughter.  She has owned him from the moment she was born, and I never anticipated how this would bring my own issues to the surface.  I have a wonderful stepfather who adopted me when I was 10, and he is fantastic - I can't stress that enough.  But it hurts my heart that we didn't have these moments MH has with Scarlett and it hurts me that my stupid sperm donor was such a douche.  I don't know how he ever let his kids go the way he did, and apparently, it still bothers me.

    Lots of hugs, e. 

    It breaks my heart to see how much my MIL loves the girls and how much they love her, because I know they'll never get those moments with my mom (she passed away), so I kind of get it.

    oh, JC, I can only imagine, but yes, I'm sure you get it.  That's got to be so hard - hugs to you too!

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  • Jodi - you're so right that it's a great feeling to know that I made good choices for my kids.  Seeing MH w/ them is wonderful.

    and hugs to you too - bad fathers are the pits.  fo' real.

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  • If you really knew me...

    ...you would know that I am physically terrified of turning into my mother.  Everyday it crosses my mind that I could turn out like her, that whatever is broken in her is also broken in me and is just waiting to come out.

    ...you would know that I am scared of becoming an agoraphobic.  My anxiety is out of control at time.

    Kill all my demons and my angels might die too. -Tennessee Williams

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  • you would know that the last 3 months of my life were spent being rather "disney"-like. I spent a good solid month fearing that I had every fatal illness known to mankind. It's scary to know that you can create such awful symptoms in your head. I had a panic attack around the clock for 2 weeks straight. I'm doing much better, but the feelings creep back all the time--I'm learning to not entertain them, but it's an awful place to be. FWIW, I could easily laugh at myself a few minutes later for even thinking it, and when the thoughts pop into my head now, I can now just make a joke that I've lost my effin' mind. It's truly awful to all of a sudden feel that every twinge, slight pain, etc is going to kill you.

    Can't believe I put that out there. There is one person on here who knows what I've gone through, and I've told her that in that time period, had a bat flown overhead, I most likely would have thought I had rabies, too. For that, I will never jump on the disney bandwagon again. 

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    For that, I will never jump on the disney bandwagon again. 

    Amen sista!

  • If you really knew me you would know that my marriage almost ended a year ago. We've stuck it out and go to therapy, still have our ups and downs, but I think we are going to be OK.

     ((hugs)) to all you ladies.


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  • If you really knew me you'd know that I work for a community agency that supports and teaches adults with IDD (formally MR) with daily living skills.  I do a lo to advocating for services, monitoring of services, assessments for daily living skills, crisis prevention/management, and service planning.  You'd know that I have a lot of passion for this job but that I was trying to make the switch from adults to children (in the school system) in order to have better pay and benefits.  I interviewed for a position next week and will find out if I got this week.  Fingers crossed! 

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