Because I have what might be the most ridiculous confession ever.
My younger brother and his wife just announced they are expecting #3. I AM THRILLED! I love my nephews and am thrilled for another. We are so close (live down the street from each other) and I love that our boys will grow up together.
My brother had his 1st before I had DS... actually he had both boys before I had DS. So he got to have the first (and second) Grandbaby.
As much as I would LOVE to see my brother with a daughter... I am secretly hoping they have another boy because I want to be the one to give my parents their 1st granddaughter.
And here's why this is the dumbest confession ever: There are no guarentee's I will even have a girl next time. I am being petty and ridunkulous... but it's how I feel.
Re: FFFC anyone???
hehe Tracey I can totally relate-- my sister has 3 boys and I obviously have DS so I am secretly hoping my next baby will be a girl so it can be my parents first grandaughter (and I know my mom will spoil a little girl w/ really cute clothes haha)
my FFFC is absolutely horrible and very unloving/unchristian of me but-- I am hauling a*s cleaning the house. Sounds good, right? uhm no because I am only doing it so DH has nothing to say about me keeping up on my duties b/c I've been kind of getting on him about keeping up w/ his duties. One would think I would clean the kitchen, do laundry, etc. so that I could have clean clothes, a clean house, etc. nope-- I am doing them for mostly selfish and spiteful reasons...so he will feel guilty that he isnt doing what he should be doing
Sidenote: I'm not normally like this but I am frustrated to all ends w/ him...and I know that this will likely backfire and not make him feel guilty which will then make me bitter that he isnt guilty buuutttt yeah...I'm doing...immaturely
hehe Tracey I can totally relate-- my sister has 3 boys and I obviously have DS so I am secretly hoping my next baby will be a girl so it can be my parents first grandaughter (and I know my mom will spoil a little girl w/ really cute clothes haha)
my FFFC is absolutely horrible and very unloving/unchristian of me but-- I am hauling a*s cleaning the house. Sounds good, right? uhm no because I am only doing it so DH has nothing to say about me keeping up on my duties b/c I've been kind of getting on him about keeping up w/ his duties. One would think I would clean the kitchen, do laundry, etc. so that I could have clean clothes, a clean house, etc. nope-- I am doing them for mostly selfish and spiteful reasons...so he will feel guilty that he isnt doing what he should be doing
Sidenote: I'm not normally like this but I am frustrated to all ends w/ him...and I know that this will likely backfire and not make him feel guilty which will then make me bitter that he isnt guilty buuutttt yeah...I'm doing it...immaturely
My FFFC is that I have become such a bitter Betty about not getting sleep even though I have tried so hard to roll with the punches. I try not to b!itch and moan about it, but hearing students complain about being tired, or seeing a STTN post makes my blood boil b/c we are so far from that it's not even funny (disclaimer: this is not directed at anyone here, I know there was a STTN post yesterday, I love you all!). I'm sitting her on 3 1/2 hr of sleep tearing my hair out thinking about starting Ferber again tonight and thinking how some people's newborns sleep more than DD does at 13 mo.
I also have baby fever, bad. There will be no more till this one sleeps, but omg I am now obsessed with having another. I was even thinking about names and how to rearrange the house to get the crap out of the spare room, things I should NOT be thinking about!
I also totally blew trying to eat well the past couple days. It was all over today when I saw a brownie when I went to get food with a friend. I'm now down the brownie and a bag of chips.
I just wanted to wish you good luck with this round of ferbering. I can only imagine getting broken sleep for over a year. I complained about "complainers" yesterday.....but in my book you can complain all.day.long. if you need to. I love me some sleep.
Jennie
I actually posted a confession on the IF board today about this but I will re-post. But I will start by saying I know I am wrong and bitter because of my situation, but it's how I feel!
DH's cousin just announced that she's pregnant... with her 5th!! They are good parents in the sense that they love their kids and the children don't go without necessities etc... but they have NO money! They are being irresponsible in my eyes by having another child when they are already on assistance, have state provided insurance, food stamps, etc... Her parents already give them all the money they can and help in any way possible but they are pretty maxed out too, plus it's not their responsibility! AND... to top it off.. they just asked to borrow $4,000 from us and DH told her no. I felt bad for her because they were going to lose their house, their van along with a long list of other things so I talked DH in to loaning her the money and they are going to pay us back when they get their tax refund. Now I just want to throat punch her!! I know I am bitter because I feel like it's so unfair that they get to pop out kids left and right and I can't even have 1!!
Thanks! I am scared to death of tonight since our previous experiences were so bad, and now she is so much older, and can stand. But, I have no choice, I was hoping to make it until I was done teaching in 2 weeks, but I just can't.
I had the same exact feelings when I was pg with DS and my sister was pg. My nephew is 5 weeks younger than Jacob, and this ended up being my sisters 4th boy. I had hoped that she was having another boy because my mom had no grand daughters, and I knew my mom would be over the moon with a girl and I was already slightly upset because I felt like our child wouldn't get as much attention since there would be 2 babies. But it has never been an issue. But I totally can relate to you!
My is stupid and terrible...but I will play.
My birthday was Monday and we all went out to dinner on Sunday. (my immediate family and DH's) Surprisingly MIL and her husband actually knew it was birthday this year and actually got me something...I was surprised. Older BIL and his family came too, and they just gave me a card. Is it a huge deal? No. Do I really need anything? No. I just hate having to buy something for all of their birthdays every single year and it not being reciprocated and fair across the board.
I usually never respond to CL item I am not interested in but I couldn't help myself yesterday. Some idiot was throwing out a really nice office desk for free! It was an espresso finish with nice brushed nickel hardware with glass top and it looked practically brand new! So I emailed him/her stating that it would be a mistake not to ask for money for such a nice piece of furniture that someone would easily pay $50 or more for it. I may have been a little rude demanding that he/she re-post the item wanting some sort of monetary value for it!
I looked for the item today out of curiosity (since I don't need an office desk) and its no where to be found.
We now have a great relationship with BIL and SIL and they are actually Ethan's Godparents, but wowza it used to be really rocky. BIL was super jealous of DH and I's relationship, we had been dating 4 years and were getting married in August 2003, and he met someone in February or March that year and they planned a quick elopment in June, 2 months before we were getting married. It was pretty crazy. He is 7 years older than my husband. DH and BIL both lived in their mom's old house and BIL came back from his elopement and fully expected DH to be gone from the house, although he never ever talked about it beforehand. It was really heated and caused so much friction. I still can't believe everything happened. Anyways, it was not just the marriage, it seemed to be everything that happened with us he tried to rush and do first when we were in the process of doing them i.e. building a house. We are ttc and I just found out yesterday that SIL is pregnant with #2, she knows we are ttc and told me before they were planning on starting to ttc in December. I really do not care that they are pg again at all and am very excited for them, but there's that tiny little piece of me that thinks of course they are pg with #2 before us when we are ttc. This is so trivial, I can't believe I am typing it. If this was FFFC a few years ago I would be lit up lol.
We both have boys, their son is 4 and Ethan is 2. MIL had 2 sons obviously, no girls. We've been trying for the Shettles method hoping for a girl (no flames!) so now we'll see what BIL/SIL end up having, and if we are blessed to get pg...
That's strange.
Get yourself a big glass of wine tonight. It will get easier as they get older-- it has to, right?
My neighbor brought Jack a cute pirate themed halloween treat bag.
I gave Sawyer a mini twix. I think he loves me a little more tonite, he was so excited..... and looked so cute frolicing around with chocolate smeared all over his face,
sue me.
I'm rambly today, but I'll bite anyways.
I get upset/annoyed/hurt/whatever you want to call it, anytime my friend from high school who I consider to be my best friend posts on her facebook about hanging out with her "bestie" or doing this or that with "the bestie". I feel awkward as it is and then when she posts something like that I feel like a huge reject because I consider her my best friend and apparently she doesn't feel the same way. I don't make friends easily. I never hang out with anyone because we only have one car that works and two trucks that need more work done to them than the dumb things are worth and I feel like if I leave in the car and strand DH here and he needs to go somewhere, I'd be a horrible wife. So I just end up staying home all the time, and I'm miserable. I need another girl's night STAT!
I'm terrified of the stove/oven/fire. No one knows this about me. This really doesn't have much to do with a stove or oven, but when I was little, maybe around 5, I came inside from swimming at my grandma's and found her kitchen table on fire. She had lit a candle and somehow it caught the table on fire. I remember yelling out to my mom asking her if grandma's kitchen table was supposed to be on fire. Ever since, I've been terrified of anything related to fire. I'll cook in the crock pot or the microwave any day, but god help me if something needs to be cooked on the stove or in the oven. Yes..I'm weird.
My co-worker was just dumped by his FI. I'm secretly glad. I met her several times and she was always sweet to me, but I had heard horrible horrible things about all the guys she was with while dating him. He's the sweetest guy in the world and deserves someone amazing. He's happier than I've seen him in the last 4 years and I hope he never takes her back.
I have eating like crap all week long. I am on my period and when AF is in town I just am constantly starving. Like, I'm so hungry, I could do a man vs. food challenge and win!
Sunday night I finished a pint of Graeter's black raspberry chip ice cream in one sitting.
I was massively craving Taco Bell and demanded that we have it for dinner on Wednesday night.
I've eaten crap all week. Creamy pesto sauce with bowtie pasta and chicken one night for dinner, tortellini another night (with 2 pieces of garlic texas toast of course), and tonight at Shaw Farms dh and I both bought tubs of homemade fudge. YUM. Oh yeah, and we've been enjoying a piece of pumpkin pie as dessert each night this week. And McDonald's chicken nuggets & fries... what is it about those stupid things?
I had a parent request a conference last night for today and I politely said "no". Sorry, but I don't think I should be given that short of notice about wanting a meeting... especially when I didn't think it was necessary.
Oh, and B's speech evaluation is scheduled for the middle of my work day. I put in for a full sick day even though I could have probably worked 2 hours first. I opted for a little 'sleeping in' time... is that so bad?
Note: I may delete this later, but man it feels good to get those last 2 things off my chest.
My very best friend has still not called me since my DD was born. I sent her an announcement but I flat out refuse to call her because I think it she should call me first.
I am super hurt though and really want to call her out on it.
My DH's husband's best friend totally has been there for him - where is my best friend?