I'm just having a hard time understanding how the meds will change how I feel. At 16 mo pp I feel a heck of a lot better then I did months ago but my doc still feels I'm dealing/suffering with pp issues and strongly urged me to start taking the meds she prescribed (zoloft 25mg for 7 days then 50mg for 3 weeks then go back for a check up). The whole thing started b/c I told her I was starting to have an issue with anxiety. When I'm a passenger in a car, especially on a highway, I start feeling sick to my stomach, get sweaty, my heart races. Of course I'm tired all the time too (who isn't with a toddler?) and I have had more frequent headaches in the last 6-9 mo, and I still feel just a little "off" but nothing that keeps me from getting out of bed or functioning.
But I just can't seem to wrap my head around HOW it's going to make me feel different.
Re: HOW did the meds change the way you felt??
I suffer from PPAnxiety after this pregnancy and did after the birth of my daughter also. Before meds I was fully capable of functioning daily and did not have the urge to stay in bed all day or any feelings of disconnect from my babies. I did though have trouble relaxing enough to sleep, was constantly worrying about schedules, ounces they ate, when they would wake up and felt like no one else (DH, my mom, my aunt who is a NICU nurse) were capable enough to take care of my baby. In addition to those feelings, I would be struck with anxiety attacks that would cause pressure in my chest, inability to breathe, racing heart, shakeyness, and uncontrolable crying. My triggers with my daughter were being alone (I'm a SAHM) and I would have attacks when people got ready to leave me. With my son, I haven't determined a trigger yet. They seem to just be hitting me out of the blue.
I took Lexapro after the birth of my daughter and am back on it now after the birth of my son since the Zoloft they started me on was causing me to dry heave, have no appetiete and upset stomach. The meds remove my constant worry and obsession about silly things. They prevent my attacks and generally allow me to relax because I am not worried about when the next attack will hit. They allow me to make decisions quickly like I could before the birth of my kids and to logically evaluate a situation instead of just over analizing everything.
I too was hesitant about meds after the birth of my daughter but am so happy I took them because they got me back to normal in a very short amount of time.
The triggers that would normally cause my heart to race, me to get out of breath, and freak out and cry don't do that anymore. I still get upset sometimes, and sometimes my heart gets faster, but I can tell that I don't NEED to get super upset about it. I can handle it.
I've been on meds for 4-5 months now, and sometimes I still feel like a zombie because I don't think I FEEL enough. But honestly at this point, I know I'm not ready to, so I'm usually ok with that.