3 foster kids & 2 losses later= TERRIFIED

Kris10lin · October 2010

so yes I am terrified! In June of 2009 I had my first loss

I was rushed to the ER with severe pains and fainting spells come to find out this was due to an ectopic pregnancy (tubal) and it had ruptured so I had emergency surgery to remove the tube, it was all so fast I didnt even have time to be afraid. We had been trying for 4 years. September 18th 2009 we got our first foster child straight from the hospital a little boy at 8 days old

we were so excited (we are in the process of adopting him now) December 14th 2009 2 little girls needed a home there was nowhere to put them they were 16months and 2.5 and had already been through there 2nd bad foster care experience sooooo yes we took em lol. January 2010 I got my first ever BFP!!!!!!!!!! And lost it 2 weeks later. Both of these pregnancies ended before my 6th week so now (we are in the process also of adopting our 2 girls) I have three foster kids that are 1, 2, &3 and just found out I am approx. 8 weeks preg. I am officially scared out of my mind. This also follows my sister giving birth 4 months ago at 23 weeks soooo our track record is not so good and I am FREAKING out! The 4 kids I can handle its the being pregnant part that scares me to death!