Infertility

Having a rough day already

I am just so sick of all this. This 2ww is killing me! I am now convinced it did not work, and I even cried the whole way to work. I feel just like I did last time, and my boobs are not even sore-they were last time though. I think I am just so sick of being devastated and sad, that I am convincing myself it will be bad news already. I am 4dp6dt. I know I am rambling, but I just can not feel positive when I don't "feel" like it worked. I guess I just need some encouragement.
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Re: Having a rough day already

  • I'm right there with you (4dp). But, we both have to remember that stress does not help. I'm trying so hard to remember that right now and ya know... not stressing is a method that we can carry out that could help us get a BFP.

    Hang in there. And I'd post a baby dust icon here but I don't know how to do that. So... baby dust to you! :)

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  • (((huge hugs)))

    I'm sorry you are having such a rough time, sweetie.

    I really hope you are wrong and this cycle will give you your baby!!

     

    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • Hey there...I'm sorry you're having a rough day. The 2ww is the worst! ((HUGS)). I hope you get some good news in the next few days. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.
    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • Hang in there.  It is still very early.  If you are or aren't having symptoms - doesn't really mean anything this early.  With all of the hormones we pump in our bodies, you can't really interpret much from symptoms.
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  • I am sorry:( Symptoms are difficult to interpret at this stage though, so try and stay positive. Can you do something fun today to distract you maybe? You need all the pampering you can get at this point.

    (((hugs)))

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  • I'm so sorry you're having a rough day. The 2ww messes with your mind so much. It's so hard to analyze symptoms - you really just never know until you POAS or have your beta. Hang in there. ((HUGS))
    Dx: High FSH, stage IV endo, homozygous C677T MTHFR and PAI-1
    Early loss 10/08
    Lap 1/09
    IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
    Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
    Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
    IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
    IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
    IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
    One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
    DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
    DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
    10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
    DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
    2 frosties but don't know what's next
    FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!
  • BIG HUGs sweetie.  The waiting and the doubt is the worst.  But we all need to be hopeful that one of these times it IS going to work and there is no reason why it isn't this time.  I have my fingers AND toes crossed for you!
    Our Blog - http://thedittemores.blogspot.com/
    Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
    2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
    4 failed IUIs in 2010
    IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
    Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
    Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
  • I'm so sorry you're struggling today. Between the stress and the meds, you really can't rely on your symptoms, or lack thereof. Hang in there!
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  • I'm so sorry you are feeling so discouraged today.  I think one of the hardest parts of IF is letting go of the fact that we have no control of what's happening.  Try to stay positive (of course easier said than done!).  I really hope that this works out for you.  Big hugs for you today....at least it's almost the weekend!   
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    "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
  • I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that this is your BFP!!
    Stopped BCPs December 2008 TTC since June 2009 6 unsuccessful Clomid cycles Dx Annovulatory due to PCOS January 2010 DH-perfect 4 unsuccessful IUIs Began Lupron July 7 for first IVF IVF cancelled; overstimulation and coasting lead to huge drop in E2 New testing with an Endocrinologist...perhaps a new diagnosis... So, not PCOS but Hashimoto's Thyroiditis November 2010 After a looong break, started seeing a new RE. Gearing up for IVF 1.2. Beta 1=197!! BabyFruit Ticker image
  • hugs and hugs and hugs.

    think positive. be positive. **i know its super hard**

     

    sending you TONS of baby dust!

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • BTW...Love the Pic it really does sum things up, doesn't it!  I feel you, I wish I was a bottomless pit of possitive thinking, but I'm not either.   But lets see if I can muster something up for you....We just keep going and trying...and trying...and being disappointed...to the point where we are manic and crazy people that we forget being a mom is a journey...not a destination...and this is all part of it.

    How was that?

     

  • I'm sorry sweetie ((hugs)) - I posted something very similar to this today too.  I cried on my way home yesterday and have been basically freaking out and thinking about whether we should start considering other options.  I'm just so, so tired of being unhappy. 

    I really hope it works out for both of us this time - we so deserve it....

    TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
    2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
    IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
    IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN :(
    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
    Lap 7/21/10
    IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
    FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!

     

    James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!

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    Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!

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  • please don't worry about symptoms, every cycle i have done have all had different symptoms.

    you are KU!!  we're all pulling for you cutie.

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    Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
  • Try to stay positive. I didn't think our IVF worked, I had 0 symptoms and couldn't believe it when we found out it did.

    I will be praying for a positive beta. Good Luck.

    PAIF and SAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC since 2007
    6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
    IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
    IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
    Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
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  • ((hugs))

    I felt the same way with my FET.  I had such high hopes with IVF#1 and when it failed I was devastated.  I remember right around 4dp5dt with my FET feeling the same way and crying a few times as DH did my PIO not because it hurt so much physically but because I was so exhausted and scared. 

    I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.  I really hope the next post I read from you is your BFP post!   

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  • Hang in there. Every 2WW is so different. Try to take one day at a time and don't get ahead of yourself. (((Hugs)))

    SAIF/PAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC #1 May 2008
    6 Rounds Clomid, 1 Round Femera-BFN
    4 IUIs (1 Clomid, 1 Femara, 2 injectables)-BFN
    February 2010-Laparoscopy
    4 months of Lupron
    August 2010-IUI #5-BFN
    October 2010-IUI #6-BFN
    IVF #1 November 2010-BFN
    IVF #2 March 2011-BFN
  • Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you!  Hang in there.  Keeping my fingers crossed for you!
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  • I'm so sorry.  It was a sadistic person indeed that decided that PMS and early pregnancy should have the same symptoms so you're constantly crazy during the 2 ww.  Crossing my fingers for you!

    Off-topic, but I am very in love with that image in your siggy with the pregnancy test. 

    Anniversary

    TTC #1 Off of HBC December 09 Dx PCOS, no ovulation, HSG + SIS normal 9/4: 100 mg clomid + ovidrel trigger: BFN 10/15: Gonal-f (75 IU, 112.5 IU, 150 IU) + ovidrel trigger + IUI: BFN 11/15: Gonal-f (112.5 IU) + ovidrel trigger + IUI: BFN 12/17: Gonal-f (112.5 IU, 150 IU): cycle canceled due to no response IVF #1: 1/18 start BCP, 2/1 start Lupron, 2/10 start stimming, 2/20 ER, 2/15 ET, 3/6 beta 1: 216, 3/8 beta 2: 420 *saifw*

  • I'm sorry you're feeling that way :( Try not to read into the symptoms tho- you're body is so whacked out right now that you can't tell anything based on them! Just keep focusing on your mom's premonition!!
    Crohn's resulting in colectomy with J-Pouch surgery in 2000/2001.
    TTC since August 2008
    IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
    IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
    Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
    "Let it go, this too shall pass."
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