I am running on zero sleep and can barely function at work. I have no idea how I am going to get through this day. Co-worker's wife had their baby over the weekend so I think I was just dreading coming back to work and dealing with the talk & pics (we had off Monday so today is the first day I've had to deal with it) added to the fact that my EDD is next Monday = no sleep for me. Of course first thing I saw this morning was a picture of the new baby so I had to pretend to be all excited. Bleh.
I knew it would be harder and harder the closer we got to the actual EDD but I honestly didn't think it would be this hard. I've cried myself to sleep the last 4 nights and I can't bring myself to let DH see me upset because he will just worry so he has no idea I've been doing this. If anyone has extra T&Ps to spare can you send some my way hoping that I get a call from the RE soon saying my PGD probe is done and we can move on with our IVF. I just need something to happen so I can start to move on and stop being frozen in time. Sorry this ended up being longer than I expected, just needed to get it out.
Re: Totally unfocused today
BFP 1: 3/19/10 Loss: 7/9/10
BFP 2: 12/28/10
My Blog: Losing Sylvia
I'm so sorry...
I'm sure the RE will be calling you very soon. Just keep that in mind and try to stay positive. Let yourself cry. You should consider talking to YH about how you're feeling. Dealing with new baby pics and an approaching EDD is tough and you shouldn't feel bad about how you feel. I'm sure YH will understand and be there for you. (((((Hugs)))))
BFP#1: 7/23/10, EDD 4/1/11, MC/DNC 9/29/10(14wks)
BFP#2: 1/12/11 CP (6 Weeks)
BFP#3: 6/26/11, EDD 3/4/12, Natural MC 8/5/11 (10wks)
"I'm not telling you it's gonna be easy. I'm telling you it's gonna be worth it." -Art Williams
"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity. And I'm not sure about the universe." - Albert Einstein
((hugs))
I am thinking of you all the time Blake. Should be any day now and then the ball will be rolling and you won't know what hit you
I am so excited for you and have everything crossed that this time next year you'll be holding your healthy baby.
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Now to add more salt onto the wound that is today, my ex-boss, who I haven't spoken to in over a year just sent me a blank email with an attachment. No words, no subject, nothing. I open it and of course what else would it be but her gorgeous 3 yr old in her ballerina halloween costume. That on top of the new born emails & insensitive FB comment, I promptly ran to the bathroom to cry. I guess I was just at my limit.
Seriously universe, go fvck yourself.