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Intro and i think i've been in denial...

MommyMar2010MommyMar2010
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DD is just 7  months and from her birth I could feel that I wasn't right afterwards---I thought it was maybe at first the c-section I'd been through (emergency c-section), the medication or just me adjusting to being a first time mom.  Months went on and I saw myself becoming SO anxious over everything, I started to see and feel a change in myself---I became so edgy and nervous and just felt horrible.  Finally now I'm seeing a therapist who has told me she doesn't think I have PPD, but severe anxiety as a result of the baby and the trauma I went through having her. 

I'm trying so hard to cope with the anxiety but there are so many days I don't even want to go out of the house, nor do I want people coming here---it's like I just want to be alone.  A lot of the time I have to force myself to do things and be social........ugh, I used to be such a social butterfly.  I hope this all helps soon.

I just wanted to introduce myself and hope to talk more with you ladies.

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  • tbone22308tbone22308
    Welcome. At least you're getting help. That's the best thing you can do. Hope you start feeling better soon!
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  • totallyshockedtotallyshocked member
    I def have those days. Today being one. My neighbor tried to stop by and hang out and I told her it wasnt a good idea since baby way fussy (which is true). You cant have good days without bad ones
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  • Kflie83Kflie83 member
    Hi! I am new to this board too and know exactly how you feel! After dealing with Postpartum anxiety for over a year I finally talked to my Dr. It seems like everything is geared towards postpartum depression and I knew I wasn't depressed. I love my life! I felt so anxious and uptight all the time. Sometimes I could even feel my blood pounding in my body! Every time the phone would ring or someone came to the door I'd get really anxious for no reason. I couldn't concentrate or multitask. If I was making dinner and DH would try to talk to me I'd snap at him. I could hardly concentrate on one thing, let alone having him talk to me while I was doing it! I stayed inside all the time and if I went out it was usually only with DH or DS. My Dr put me on Prozac, which at first I actually refused to take. I'd heard so much bad stuff about it and thought it was mostly for depression. Wow, after only taking it for a week I felt so much better!! I've been on it about a month now and am so glad I listened to my Dr. She said that I could benefit from counseling as well, but since I didn't really have an underlying issue for the anxiety she didn't make it mandatory. I might still see someone who can help me with calming techniques, but just wanted you to know you're not alone!! There is light at the end of the tunnel!
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  • MommyMar2010MommyMar2010

    Thanks ladies.

    I'm working on using some of the calming techniques my therapist suggested.....and I'm really starting to consider using some meds to help me get through this right now.  I can't stand always feeling so wound up all the time, I know I'm sooo not fun to be around like 90% of the time.  I worry about everything!

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  • SaraMaeHeinickSaraMaeHeinick

    I understand about your anxiety completely. I have terrible anxiety and also social anxiety.

    Somedays I sit and stare outside and the window pains feel like prison bars. I fear to go out because I hate being asked, "How are you?"

     

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  • julybaby23julybaby23
    There is SO much focus on PPD and none on PPA. I was geard up to have depression and instead I had debilitating anxiety. I literally could not sleep for over a week I was so wound up. I would definitely consider medication. It has made all the difference for me-- and I tried every calming technique in the book first. At least schedule an appoinment to talk about it. Good luck!
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  • totallyshockedtotallyshocked member

    just like PP I had anxiety sooo bad I could not sleep well except late at nite my body literally passed out and it would only be for a few hours then up at 4-6 am and I couldnt stay calm the rest of the day. I basically force fed myslef and then to boost drinks to keep nutrition in. But I started Celexa and within days I could calmly lay down to watch tv, to sleep, to just relax. I out eat SO some meals now too! LOL. need to shrink my belly but I know everyone wants to avoid meds and feel bad about it but PPD and PPA  are illness'. 

    When you have an illness you need medicine just like a cold or cancer. The sooner your happier the sooner baby is. My relationship with my DD is so much better now that Im feeling better. Dont be ashamed of anything!! If therapy can help too thats great. Just want you to know how bad it gets for a lot of us and it DOES get better. *HUGS* 

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  • ImChrisBrideImChrisBride member

    imagejulybaby23:
    There is SO much focus on PPD and none on PPA. I was geard up to have depression and instead I had debilitating anxiety. I literally could not sleep for over a week I was so wound up. I would definitely consider medication. It has made all the difference for me-- and I tried every calming technique in the book first. At least schedule an appoinment to talk about it. Good luck!

    THIS EXACTLY!!

    I did have depression also, but I'd have to say my Post Partum Anxiety was/is the more worrisome issue for me.  MommyMar, I don't mean to argue with your doctor, but to tell you you have "anxiety related to your LO's birth..."  well in my book that IS post partum anxiety!  IMO if you are depressed or abnormally anxious and the symptoms started with pregnancy or childbirth, that's a perinatal mood disorder.

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  • ImChrisBrideImChrisBride member

    imagejulybaby23:
    There is SO much focus on PPD and none on PPA. I was geard up to have depression and instead I had debilitating anxiety. I literally could not sleep for over a week I was so wound up. I would definitely consider medication. It has made all the difference for me-- and I tried every calming technique in the book first. At least schedule an appoinment to talk about it. Good luck!

    THIS EXACTLY!!

    I did have depression also, but I'd have to say my Post Partum Anxiety was/is the more worrisome issue for me.  MommyMar, I don't mean to argue with your doctor, but to tell you you have "anxiety related to your LO's birth..."  well in my book that IS post partum anxiety!  IMO if you are depressed or abnormally anxious and the symptoms started with pregnancy or childbirth, that's a perinatal mood disorder.

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