I'm sick of being responsible for 10 million things at work. I have 21 kids to teach. I shouldn't have to be secretary, janitor, counselor, etc. too. I'm tired of running around like a crazy person because I can't get everything done!!
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
That I'm sitting here typing with the laptop on my lap looking at a poofy belly!! I have GOT to lose this freaking pregnancy/mc/depression/IVF fat and all I want to do is sit on the couch and shove twinkies in my face.
I fvcking hate my body for so many freaking reasons!!
Dh is really ticking me off! he took my atm card w/o asking and withdrew $200 from my acct. all so he could go golfing. and the worst part is that he never even told me he just left the receipt by my purse!!!!!! i feel violated like he stole from me. so currently i don't even want to talk to him.
8.15.07 NATHAN
6.13.09 - 6.14.09 WYATT born 32w3d Gone too soon, RIP.
4.21.10 BFP - missed m/c - D&C on 5.27.10.
1.31.11 BFP - 1st cycle IUI + Follistim + Trigger (2 mature follies)Beta 1 @ 13dpiui: 199 Beta 2 @ 15dpiui: 527
10.7.11 ELIANA(Ellie)ROSE (39w3d)Team Green turned Team Pink - VBAC & ALL NATURAL 6lbs 11oz 19 &1/2in
That I'm sitting here typing with the laptop on my lap looking at a poofy belly!! I have GOT to lose this freaking pregnancy/mc/depression/IVF fat and all I want to do is sit on the couch and shove twinkies in my face.
I fvcking hate my body for so many freaking reasons!!
I'm so right there with you - so what did I do...went to dunkin doughnuts and had a pumpkin doughnut.urggggg
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So much... Jobs that are only paying 1/2 - 2/3 of what I was getting paid. My BSC mother and my sister who has only been engaged for a couple of weeks and already she has turned into a bridezilla. My body, I swear it hates me, but I hate it right back.
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle! April 2011 CP @ 5 weeks
I went shopping and accedently turned the wrong effn way...which then led me to Long Boat Key with no turnaround.... so I'm drivin on this damn long ass Island with no stores to shop at. Half way through the Island... Oh One way in, one way out deal... I look down and see I'm on E!!!!! SH!T!!!!!!
So I'm freaking out... there are effin snow birds everywhere that can't stay a steady speed, so they r just eating up my gas. Then my light starts blinking and BAM... A gas station! P!ss me off cause I paid 2.99 for gas, and I swore I'd NEVER go to BP ever again!
That I'm sitting here typing with the laptop on my lap looking at a poofy belly!! I have GOT to lose this freaking pregnancy/mc/depression/IVF fat and all I want to do is sit on the couch and shove twinkies in my face.
I fvcking hate my body for so many freaking reasons!!
I resemble this 100%
I am annoyed that my car is in for maintenance. It is beautiful outside but I am stuck at home. Only upside is that I am laying here hoping to be incubating something. Wait, who am I kidding?
We have a new manager at work and she is a new mom and all she talks about is the baby. Once and awhile I understand but she goes into detail, I shouldn't know how many times her baby goes to the bathroom a day or that her nephew had bloody poop. Then I stop at the store on the way home and run into a lady with infant twins. I felt bad that the only thought that crossed my mind was why does she get her babies and I don't.
Jenn
3 IUI's all BFN
IVF#1 BFN
IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks
FET#1 BFN
IVF#3 BFP, m/c
FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
That I have to be on call this weekend. Of course I signed up for it but didn't really have much of a choice. I have been on call, worked or both everyday since Monday and that will go on until this next Monday.
DH is driving me crazy.
Oh and what babygirlpriest said. Ditto that.
TTC Since Oct 08
BFP #1- 1/23/09, missed m/c 2/26/09
BFP #2- 9/8/09, natural m/c 9/16/09
BFP #3- 4/13/10, missed m/c 5/26/10
BFP #4- 4/6/11 beta#1 at 12dpo-133 prog-55.7, beta#2 at 16dpo- 861 DD born 12/8/2011
BFP#5- 11/23/12 EDD 7/25/13
Dx- Uterine septum (removed Aug 2010), endo, MTHFR C677t
hetero, Factor II hetero, Low Protein S
Someone told me this week that a certain group of mutual people we know did not know what to say to me after my miscarriage and for the months following and they collectively as a group decided that my "attitude" made them deem me "unapproachable" and therefore they all just "let me be."
Silly me, while I was upset and depressed and not getting out of my PJ's all day because I was sad about my dead baby, I neglected to think about the way THEY might feel. I am such a heartless B*tch.
So I'm really late to the party, seeing how it's Sunday & I'm just catching up.
1) Keeping my house sparkling clean b/c it's on the market. And not only that, but having a DH who's a kinda big slob.
2) It's busy season for me at work. This is a good thing, but I'm fvcking exhausted.
3) My cat thinks he's a rottweiler & tries to scare off our potential buyers. I have to come home & lock him in a kennel when we have showings. Very big PITA.
Connor Thomas 6/6/08. Discovered missed miscarriage at 17 wks 3 days, D&C 11/25/09.
Please, please, please - BFP 5/21/11, EDD 2/1/11. Beta@12DPO=52, Beta@14DPO=158. U/S 7/7/11 shows strong baby measuring a couple days ahead!!!
Re: Fvck This Sh!t Friday
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
As usual, everything.
12 long, hard years of TTC-
Miscarriages, losses, lots of treatments & drugs & IVF
Natural BFP (WTF?!) - 06/04/11 ~ lots of complication and drama, but sweet baby Adele born 02/07/12!
BFP #million -another girl for us! EDD - 05-08-15 (but will come early)
Oh yeah, that too.
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
What's pissing me off?
That I'm sitting here typing with the laptop on my lap looking at a poofy belly!! I have GOT to lose this freaking pregnancy/mc/depression/IVF fat and all I want to do is sit on the couch and shove twinkies in my face.
I fvcking hate my body for so many freaking reasons!!
I cannot find those fvcking french fried onions for the life of me.
I have been to 3 damn grocery stores and everyone looks at me like I'm drunk when I ask where they might be.
I'm so right there with you - so what did I do...went to dunkin doughnuts and had a pumpkin doughnut.urggggg
BFP #2 EDD September 30, 2012 ~ natural m/c 5w4d
broken hearted, changed forever
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!
April 2011 CP @ 5 weeks
I went shopping and accedently turned the wrong effn way...which then led me to Long Boat Key with no turnaround.... so I'm drivin on this damn long ass Island with no stores to shop at. Half way through the Island... Oh One way in, one way out deal... I look down and see I'm on E!!!!! SH!T!!!!!!
So I'm freaking out... there are effin snow birds everywhere that can't stay a steady speed, so they r just eating up my gas. Then my light starts blinking and BAM... A gas station! P!ss me off cause I paid 2.99 for gas, and I swore I'd NEVER go to BP ever again!
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
my blog
That I have to be on call this weekend. Of course I signed up for it but didn't really have much of a choice. I have been on call, worked or both everyday since Monday and that will go on until this next Monday.
DH is driving me crazy.
Oh and what babygirlpriest said. Ditto that.
Someone told me this week that a certain group of mutual people we know did not know what to say to me after my miscarriage and for the months following and they collectively as a group decided that my "attitude" made them deem me "unapproachable" and therefore they all just "let me be."
Silly me, while I was upset and depressed and not getting out of my PJ's all day because I was sad about my dead baby, I neglected to think about the way THEY might feel. I am such a heartless B*tch.
So I'm really late to the party, seeing how it's Sunday & I'm just catching up.
1) Keeping my house sparkling clean b/c it's on the market. And not only that, but having a DH who's a kinda big slob.
2) It's busy season for me at work. This is a good thing, but I'm fvcking exhausted.
3) My cat thinks he's a rottweiler & tries to scare off our potential buyers. I have to come home & lock him in a kennel when we have showings. Very big PITA.