I am talking to his therapist about it today, but I want to get your input as well.
On Friday last week my son and I got into an argument about cleaning his room. It escalated to him slamming doors, throwing things and screaming so loud is made my ears ring. Lo was witnessing all of it. I ended up spanking my son.
About 20 minutes after the spanking, I looked toward his bedroom door and noticed there was bright light coming from the bottom. He had been quiet so I was thinking he fell asleep before I saw the light. When I went into his room, he was standing on his bed trying to get the screen off the window. When he saw me he started to cry hysterically. I asked him what he was doing, hoping it wasn't what it looked like. He couldn't even talk, he was so upset. I finally got him calmed down enough to tell me he was trying to get the screen off so he could jump (we are up 3 stories, and below his window is cement). I asked him what he thought would happen to him if he jumped, and he said he would die.
My world crashed around me. I asked him why, and he said he wanted to die because I hate him. I have no Idea why he would think that, because I tell him I love him all the time, and I have never said i hate him.
I held him, told him what would happen if he left us. How he would never see his baby brother grow up, me, his daddy and all of his family and friends would be so sad, etc..
Now what can I do? Besides keep him in counseling, I am at a loss. He seems fine now, and was alright soon after the incident, but I am so scared. The fact that he even considered killing himself scares me so much.